I'm writing this mostly because I think I'll either forget to, or lose the chance to all things considered. I doubt the people this is intended to reach will see it, but who knows. If something does go down I'll probably link it where it'll get noticed.

As of...What, this passed monday? Earlier this week, both my Mother and Aunt were demoted and given notice by their boss [same woman] for a bunch of bullshit reasons. The short long of it is they're medical coders [billing] and one of the higher up's kids wanted a job at their work, so they're making room by giving them management positions. They ended up having panic attacks and going to the hospital because of it, and are out on sick leave. They haven't gone back to work because...Lets be honest, they'll get fired if they go in, so they're biding their time, looking at options of what to do. Sadly, we live in the US, so more than likely they'll end up unemployed despite their experience. This means that between the car accident, my uncle's bad leg, and this, we have no options; I can't go anywhere to sell my stock, and getting a job in the US apparently is impossible for someone in my position, my Cosine moved across country a month and a half ago, and the rest of our family is scattered. All in all, their jobs were our last lifeline while me and my uncle got back on our feet. Literally and figuratively.

Since we live in the US, if we can't make rent payments, we'll be thrown out of our apartment. Literally. And without a permanent residence, we fall under Vagrancy laws. For those of you not living in the US, that means Anti-homeless laws; It is literally a crime to be without a job and a home in the US. Because of this, it's more than likely we'll end up having to move from place to place to avoid being arrested, while trying to find some kind of work and housing. This isn't to say that this scenario is an absolute, we are looking into alternatives to just living on the street obviously, but we've had to be really honest with ourselves. We live in the US, where people see it as a pseudo-crime to ask for assistance, and where a lot of public programs have been gutted for one reason or another. Hell, my Uncle is a vet, and he can't get any kind of assistance despite his service, what could the rest of us get? So I'm writing this as a heads up, I'm likely to just drop of the face of the earth for awhile. Iunno when, but I like to give ample warning. You guys are my friends, and I don't want you thinking that I'm avoiding you guys, or that it's something you did if I go dark; I just don't have a connection and all that jazz.

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Now on that note, the other reason I'm writing this is to give some...coverage?...Perspective?...Iunno, I'm not good with words anymore, but I need to put a couple things out there, and vent at the same time I suppose. Today's been a pretty terrible day to be honest. Started off great thanks to Rift and Krios, and now I...I'm pretty numb and worn out because of...You know, I won't name names. I should, and I don't mean that in a vindictive way, I should because the person that started this is apparently so volatile even talking to them is enough excuse for them to attack people. It's mostly furry drama, but...It's also the kind of stuff that, passed the drama, really does hurt and is going as far enough to effect my social life and that of my friends.

I'd say...couple hours before writing this, I got a message from someone who had blocked me on skype on flist. This person blocked me because he thought that I was lying about something I said about another person, a person that's been harassing me through proxi, rumor-mongering, and wholesale stalking, and in a brilliant leap in logic decided to force me into a group chat with my stalker to demand we talk and try and make up. This is the part where I make a face that expresses how stupid I think he is for trying to do that to anyone. When I leave the conversation, he takes that leap in assuming 'you're the first to leave, so you must be the liar -block-'. It hurt, but...As pretty much everyone pointed out, he was dumb enough to try and push someone to their stalker after backstabbing them, not worth it.

Fast forward to today, when I get a message from him out of the blue being snippy, saying 'you're being rude, please don't do that again' or some such. I asked him what he meant, and instead of answering he says 'I blocked you for lying to me, best not to keep doing it' and wanted me to fess up to being someone else. Turns out, a friend staying over at my place had messaged an alternate character of his to find out if it was him playing him, and blocked him when he did. For whatever reason, he believed that A; it was me, and B; that after being blocked on two communications that it'd be okay to message someone on a different line to yell at them. Okay, sure.....My friend sees this and decides to message him again, and tell him no, it wasn't me that messaged him, it was him that did. Now I don't know what went on between them, I kinda don't care. What I do know is that after my friend blocks this guy, and I block him for the third time, my friend gets messaged by an Admin on flist stating that he'd get a month long ban for messaging that guy.

So...The guy that I blocked goes around that, just to harass me, because a friend blocked him, and....Somehow my friend is the one to be banned?...Okay, sure...That makes sense, right?

But it gets better. Because he's here rooming with us while he's in town, he's on our wifi. Meaning that every account in the apartment building-- yes, believe it or not there's more than one furry in this building, surprising-- is either an alt of this one guy, or account sharing. This isn't the first time we've been fingered like this either, the guy two floors up got banned for 'ignoring an admin' and I got banned for it too. So surprise, I get banned from flist because of the above. I'll end up making an appeal for it, but...Considering it was less than five minutes before my friend got banned after he blocked the guy, it's likely this guy has an Admin friend that will just delete the appeal. But...All that isn't even why I'm typing this. No...I posted before I got kicked that I was likely to be banned over this, writing on the wall and all that, so people would know to message me else where. And people did, and I'm very thankful to those of you who came to me to get my side of all this, and showed support. You're good friends and I thank you for that.

But then I got one person who said that people were upset that I and a few others were banned.....And were promptly being told that we were banned for stalking and harassing someone for their account information. And then another...And then two more....

I have no way of confirming any of this; I can't check my emails on flist, or see what's going on with my friends, or speak out in any way. I'm practically blind on there. But when more than one person comes to me with the same story, who don't know eachother, I tend to believe them. So I'm writing this part to say, no, we did not stalk, harass, pressure, bully, or do anything of the sort to try and obtain someone's account information. That is a complete and total fabrication to discredit us.

That aside, I just....I'm feeling very weak, and very powerless because of this. This isn't the first time admin abuse has happened on Flist, or to me and my friends specificlly. Hell, the last time I was banned, it was because some snot ran to his admin master claiming I said I'd 'hack the site with my L33t skillz and do all these nasty things!' to keep me from reporting him. Yeah, I got banned by the guy I was reporting, to stop me from reporting. But this is one of those times where...Someone I considered a good friend completely and maliciously turned on me without provocation. It's rare that it happens, but it shakes me deep....and I just...I'm scared that when I finally do get back my ability to act, it'll be too late, ya know? I mean...It hasn't even been three fking hours, and already there's rumors? really? I know I;m not the most likable guy, but fuck me...I didn't know I had THAT many enemies waiting to jump at the chance....Iunno...I'm rambling...

Either way, I...Said what I needed to I suppose. I'm sorry if I fall off the grid you guy, I should have done better to prevent all of this...Just...Know I'll be around to try and give love, okay?