I don't really know whats been going on with me recently. I nearly never sleep anymore. I am always bored wanting something to do. I havent felt like ive had fun once since I went to NFC. Sure I've heard of post-con blues but you'd think it would have passed. I feel so ignored all the time. I haven't talked to anyone verbaly in like a month or two who hasn't been my parents and brother or medical staff. No friends seems to talk to me anymore and I just feel so ignored. I keep reading on twitter and facebook people I consider friends having fun and it just seems like everyone seems to forget about me. No one ever seems to think of me when they wanna do something. Maybe its just my brain screwing with me but it feels really bad. Maybe its just that those people dont want anything to do with me. The only times i've left my house recently has been to go shopping or to go to the hospital. 95% of my time I spend within the four walls of my room which has become more of a prison than a sanctuary. I feel like if im going insane. Always tiered but can never sleep. Always bored with nothing to do. Anxiety making me scared that ive pushed away every person id ever considered a friend.

Oh well now im rambeling so im going to end this journal now. Anyway long story short Im a loser that nobody cares about and it'd be better if people just forgot about me.