Hey everyone.

So yes I've gone dark for a month and honestly I really don't feel any better but I do feel like I have me ducks in a row a bit more.

So about my month long absence. I had a break down. 2 actually. I've been not really depressed but stressing about so much and I can't seem to figure out how to let go and turn off. After seeing a therapist and then a psychologist, I have crippling stress where it masks it's self as depression. I wasn't looking for a med to fix me just methods to cope and eventually work out of it. The only med they could give me would literally make it to where I become super apathetic and almost mind numb to everything around me and I wasn't about to do that. However they did find out that I do have a hormonal imbalance and that could be explaining a lot of things. My estrogen levels are huge which explains the near constant head aches, the rage and the lack of control of myself so I'm working on getting that stabilized.

The good news out of this? I've recently been hired at a job I've wanted literally for 3 years, and when I left the interview I felt I did terrible, like completely bombed it. Turns out I blew their mind and they wanted me immediately. So I start that on June 27th with a higher pay and less stress on my life. I'm super excited. Like. Beyond excited.

Now after these commissions are done and out I will no longer be taking anymore. My doctor believes having too much stress and strain of being pulled every which way and never having a down time to myself to socialize and relax is terrible for me at this time. So. That being said I will be closing commissions after these 13 I've to finish. I will definitely be on streaming on the weekends. During the week I'll do my best, no real guarantees. I will be starting work on these left over commissions the weekend after Memorial Day. So, June 4th.

I can't thank you guys enough for respecting my space.

Thanks abunch.