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Y'know... (Sorta NSFW)
9 years ago
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Body full of fluff, head full of stuff.
For a gay chick, I get a lot of attention from guys but never girls. Three guy friends in the past year said they've had feelings for me but here I am upset that Anna ended it with me.
It's not even the "My dick will make you straight" kind of crap I've come across a lot. Trust me, when guys act like their trouser snake is enough to change your sexuality, it's not for your interest, it's because they're awful people. They wouldn't like it if a gay man came up and said to them that he could make them gay.
Not in your dreams, boys.
I'm honestly pretty bothered by it, all jokes aside. Like, it took me my entire life to figure out who I am, and people are telling me it's wrong because of the medication I'll take, or that their penis is secretly the cure for the gays.
I'm... KInda worried I'll sign up for a dating site somewhere down the road and all I'll get is hordes of men thinking that they and only they, have a chance at my body. Girls would just ignore me.
All that said, I get it. Relationships aren't the end all, be all. That's why I'm not looking for something right now. I'm not in a mental or financial state for it. I'm just talking about when I get back into the dating scene and I'm actively looking again. Even people not interested at the moment can still feel "the singles" take hold of them. The medication I'm going to take is just going to make that all so much more difficult.
And don't get me started on the things I've done lately that I'm really not proud of.
Ugh. I need someone to talk to who won't try to convince me that my sexuality is a joke.
It's not even the "My dick will make you straight" kind of crap I've come across a lot. Trust me, when guys act like their trouser snake is enough to change your sexuality, it's not for your interest, it's because they're awful people. They wouldn't like it if a gay man came up and said to them that he could make them gay.
Not in your dreams, boys.
I'm honestly pretty bothered by it, all jokes aside. Like, it took me my entire life to figure out who I am, and people are telling me it's wrong because of the medication I'll take, or that their penis is secretly the cure for the gays.
I'm... KInda worried I'll sign up for a dating site somewhere down the road and all I'll get is hordes of men thinking that they and only they, have a chance at my body. Girls would just ignore me.
All that said, I get it. Relationships aren't the end all, be all. That's why I'm not looking for something right now. I'm not in a mental or financial state for it. I'm just talking about when I get back into the dating scene and I'm actively looking again. Even people not interested at the moment can still feel "the singles" take hold of them. The medication I'm going to take is just going to make that all so much more difficult.
And don't get me started on the things I've done lately that I'm really not proud of.
Ugh. I need someone to talk to who won't try to convince me that my sexuality is a joke.
Don't worry about dating after graduation, I met my first ex a few years earlier, but we weren't a couple until months afterward. Go for it when it feels right for you, y'know?
You'll find something one day when you're all ready. Focus on loving yourself first and finding yourself. Having confidence in yourself is a big factor in attracting somebody who has the same interests in mind.
I hope you're right, I've been trying a lot harder to care for myself recently. I've always put more effort into relationships than I get back and it's always burned me pretty bad ^^;
I'm sure if you use gay dating apps or something you're more likely to find someone in a similar position to you c: Just be careful!
I've looked at Tinder, I just have this awful feeling that nobody would ever swipe my way...