Well maybe, maybe not. Tests results show no blood flow which seems to say it is not cancer and is just a nodual BUT it's in a funny place, not normally where you'd get a nodual at SOOOOOOO normally they would do a biopsy of it to see if it is cancer or not. Here is the problem, where it is at would require major surgery, like the type of surgery that would be done if it was cancerous just to get at it to do the biopsy. Stander course of action is wait long enough to redo the ultrasound test again and see if there is any change in the lump or not. How long is enough? 6 freaking months!!!! That's right, I won't know till novemember if it is cancer or not! That is unless I start to feel a lump in my neck! I don't now but I am supposed to check for it every day which has turned into an OCD thing of checking every few hours for the rapidly growing Anaplastic type tumor which according to medical journals grows visibly larger within 24 hours bulging out of your neck like you are growing a CHUDling and kills you in less than year even if they cut away most of your neck.

Anywho, nother bit of unending stress inflicted on me by shitworld.

Worst part is I don't fear dying on this. I fear a tracheotomy, I don't know what it is but just the thought of that unnatural hole in the neck makes me squirm when I see one. I'm not going to have one done, I have put up with enough shit to survive in a world I really really hate but I am drawing a line. I've got just one word for god, goddess, or what ever powers that be, on the day I die, "RUN!"