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This is a really long entry, and a REALLY KIND OF ODD. D:
16 years ago
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! I have never had a dream as intense as the one I just did now, one where I woke up only to find that I had actually been crying quite hard while I was dreaming.
The dream itself was really kind of a jumble, switching from me hanging out in some park with friends from highschool to the scene that apparently just tore me up.
It was almost like a movie, really, someone was in a spaceship that was made of two spheres inside of each other which had only enough room for one person and would separate to open up. As in, the spheres would become two spheres outside of each other by the outermost opening up and the other coming out; it didn't really seem to make much sense to me.
At any rate, someone comes out, and I can tell that they're male, but they're obviously crossdressing... All I really remember them wearing is a black corset. Truth be told, they looked sort of like some kind of anthropomorphic animal, but perhaps just barely, like their animal features were just barely there.
Then, someone else comes into view, I don't even know if I ever saw their face. Apparently they don't like the fact that this person is here, and has been expecting their unwanted arrival. I suppose I should mention that this is on some sort of large starship, in a shuttle bay of sorts.
The ship's AI system chimes in how it should scan the vessel ad whatnot, the second person starts griping about it, but eventually concedes. The two start talking, about what I have no idea.
Then, a flashback of the first being giving the equivalent of $50 to someone, a woman. I don't know she was his sister or wife or what, but they were obviously close, and the feeling I took away from it was one of a certainty of not coming back. Not exactly dying, just... not being able to return.
Another flashback, this time from the woman, giving some sort of talk and being disappointed that he wasn't there; I think the money was supposed to make up for this fact..? That doesn't really make any sense to me though.
For some reason, though, that scene right there just apparently killed me back in the real world.
I think that look on the male's face, that look of complete uncertainty and the fact that he could very well be leaving this other person all alone forever somehow struck me so hard that tears just streamed from my eyes; my pillow is still fairly wet even now, a good half-hour after the fact.
What the hell.
The dream itself was really kind of a jumble, switching from me hanging out in some park with friends from highschool to the scene that apparently just tore me up.
It was almost like a movie, really, someone was in a spaceship that was made of two spheres inside of each other which had only enough room for one person and would separate to open up. As in, the spheres would become two spheres outside of each other by the outermost opening up and the other coming out; it didn't really seem to make much sense to me.
At any rate, someone comes out, and I can tell that they're male, but they're obviously crossdressing... All I really remember them wearing is a black corset. Truth be told, they looked sort of like some kind of anthropomorphic animal, but perhaps just barely, like their animal features were just barely there.
Then, someone else comes into view, I don't even know if I ever saw their face. Apparently they don't like the fact that this person is here, and has been expecting their unwanted arrival. I suppose I should mention that this is on some sort of large starship, in a shuttle bay of sorts.
The ship's AI system chimes in how it should scan the vessel ad whatnot, the second person starts griping about it, but eventually concedes. The two start talking, about what I have no idea.
Then, a flashback of the first being giving the equivalent of $50 to someone, a woman. I don't know she was his sister or wife or what, but they were obviously close, and the feeling I took away from it was one of a certainty of not coming back. Not exactly dying, just... not being able to return.
Another flashback, this time from the woman, giving some sort of talk and being disappointed that he wasn't there; I think the money was supposed to make up for this fact..? That doesn't really make any sense to me though.
For some reason, though, that scene right there just apparently killed me back in the real world.
I think that look on the male's face, that look of complete uncertainty and the fact that he could very well be leaving this other person all alone forever somehow struck me so hard that tears just streamed from my eyes; my pillow is still fairly wet even now, a good half-hour after the fact.
What the hell.
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ever since april, my dreams kinda stopped. its like kinda like the dream you had but from p.o.v. of the cross-dressing alien? (my dreams were so fucked up once)
what the hell indeed