i'm gonna go ahead and copypaste this Life Update Journal from deviantart (with some edits because there were some references to things mentioned in other deviantart journals) because i feel like i don't post enough of this kind of stuff here

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i am having such a weird summer

for one thing, i haven't been in the mood for drawing lately. whenever i have free time i either do stuff other than drawing or i just waste it all doing nothing. i really really want to draw more but i'm just not doing it and i am so frustrated with myself

i've been going to work with my mom 3-4 days a week. i want to stop soon & take the rest of the summer off, but now i've gotten more involved & i feel more like part of the team rather than just a helper & i feel like i can't leave. so that's a problem. i definitely can't keep working all through the summer; i need a break before i go back to school

i'm actually only working two days this week, but that's only because i'm getting my wisdom teeth out on wednesday. getting time off is nice but i'm going to be recovering from surgery so i don't expect it to be much fun

i do have some good news: i've been seeing a psychiatrist for the past few months! after a lifetime of feeling 'different' and years of struggling with my mental health, i've finally been diagnosed with autism and social anxiety disorder, and i'm taking anxiety medication and starting therapy. we haven't done much therapy stuff yet (the assessment/diagnosis process took a long time), but the meds alone are already making life a little easier for me - obviously these pills haven't magically cured my anxiety, but they have made a difference and it's pretty amazing. i really feel like i can start taking control of my life now. it's really cool

so that's my life right now. i'll probably continue to be very inactive here, unless my inner artist suddenly comes back to life and i start drawing again. we'll see. this summer has just been very unusual for me and i have no idea what the future will bring