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9 years ago
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This is my journal from DA explaining my absents.
Hello everyone. I'm sorry I'm returning to you after an absence of close to a year. I'm not good at the internet...
A lot happened after my trip to New Mexico. Things that made my life spin out of control and then land me somewhere I never thought I'd be. I had desperately needed a job, so before I went on my trip to NM my mom helped me get one where she was working. She was a caretaker to a man with MS who is paralyzed from the neck down. He can't do anything for himself and he needed someone to help out on the night shift.
When I started, I was only suppose to work a few nights a week while the other on night shift took the rest. I was there for only a week when Tim (the other person working nights with me) ended up in the emergency room and on kidney dialysis. He was no longer able to work, and I had to take every single night. 7 days a week, 10 hours every day. Needless to say, I was always tired and stressed out. All I ever wanted to do was sleep. I knew I should get online and let people know, but that has always been my problem. I have anxiety issue with getting online to begin with, but this situation made it worse and I couldn't bring myself to do it without having a panic attack.
A few months of this job passed by, and I didn't have the slightest desire to draw, but a new desire popped up in it's place. It was something I have thought about for years, but had never been very serious about until recently. I wanted to become a Massage Therapist. So I went for it.
I added 5 days of school on top of my 7 days of work. If I was lucky I got 6 hours of sleep every day and despite this, I felt better then ever. I think it's because I' am working toward my goal.
I'm halfway through school and my employer is finally getting someone to replace me which feels great. I don't think I'll ever be super active online with art, but now I feel as though I can draw as a hobby which calms me down. The thought of doing it as a living is what causes me anxiety I think. I will post art again, and Hopefully no more disappearing for a year and what not.
I will not be taking commissions outside conventions ever again. I'm just no good at it. If you have commissioned me and have not received your art, and I haven't contacted you, send me a note and we'll get it sorted out. It took awhile to get my FA back, but as you can see it's all worked out here.
Hello everyone. I'm sorry I'm returning to you after an absence of close to a year. I'm not good at the internet...
A lot happened after my trip to New Mexico. Things that made my life spin out of control and then land me somewhere I never thought I'd be. I had desperately needed a job, so before I went on my trip to NM my mom helped me get one where she was working. She was a caretaker to a man with MS who is paralyzed from the neck down. He can't do anything for himself and he needed someone to help out on the night shift.
When I started, I was only suppose to work a few nights a week while the other on night shift took the rest. I was there for only a week when Tim (the other person working nights with me) ended up in the emergency room and on kidney dialysis. He was no longer able to work, and I had to take every single night. 7 days a week, 10 hours every day. Needless to say, I was always tired and stressed out. All I ever wanted to do was sleep. I knew I should get online and let people know, but that has always been my problem. I have anxiety issue with getting online to begin with, but this situation made it worse and I couldn't bring myself to do it without having a panic attack.
A few months of this job passed by, and I didn't have the slightest desire to draw, but a new desire popped up in it's place. It was something I have thought about for years, but had never been very serious about until recently. I wanted to become a Massage Therapist. So I went for it.
I added 5 days of school on top of my 7 days of work. If I was lucky I got 6 hours of sleep every day and despite this, I felt better then ever. I think it's because I' am working toward my goal.
I'm halfway through school and my employer is finally getting someone to replace me which feels great. I don't think I'll ever be super active online with art, but now I feel as though I can draw as a hobby which calms me down. The thought of doing it as a living is what causes me anxiety I think. I will post art again, and Hopefully no more disappearing for a year and what not.
I will not be taking commissions outside conventions ever again. I'm just no good at it. If you have commissioned me and have not received your art, and I haven't contacted you, send me a note and we'll get it sorted out. It took awhile to get my FA back, but as you can see it's all worked out here.
As for the commission thing, I guess I shall have to try and get my butt over to the US cons one day now :D If anything your stunning work is an inspiration for me to get over there finally and get some :)
As for Anthrocon it's been on the cards and my partner really wants to go again; it's just a matter of saving up lots of the £££
We need to talk more though, I really do miss you!
I kid, I really want to see you! And okay get art from you too. xD
Ahhh, I actually don't really want to attend AC only because of how big it is and I'm not very good with dealing with huge crowds. ;n; BLFC is now like the 3rd largest con I think? So that's getting to big for me. ;n;
I like the cons better when I'm not trying to make money and I can run around, but then I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. XD
glad to hear from you again! :) and good to hear you can become a massage therapist like you wanted. :)
It's going to be fun. ^^ I enjoy it a lot. :D
Glad you're working towards a big life goal, that's pretty awesome. And massage therapy! ooh, nice!
You guys going to MFF?