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Bit of a Slump [Rant / long text warning]
9 years ago
Hi all you lot;
As some of you who watch me may realise I don't really seem to post art here that often, I hope to change that slightly with the coming months however I've been in a bit of a bad slump recently;
IRL work has become insane - 45+ hours each week with even days off I've been getting bombarded by colleges unable to do their job because they can't remember even simple training, it's made focusing on the outside world hard because I don't want to think about it, thought things would return to normality once we got a new manager and he settled after his training but nope, apparently I (a sales assisstant acting keyholder ) knows more about how to do his job that he does! so it makes me a bit grr and panic'd because I then feel like if I have an issue where I don't understand something, there's no one to turn too in the work place which is where most of my time ends up spent.
Also losing out on a lot of sleep with the warm weather being here - I don't sleep that well to begin with in summer because my body clock wakes me up with the sun; (even with blackout curtains it somehow knows) though the warm weather makes it even harder to get to sleep and stay asleep, which then means I'm not resting enough so I'm even more tired after each day;
I also feel as though I'm missing something right now; I recently got "engaged" to my partner and the ring broke so it needed to go for repairs today; and after getting used to it being there it's odd that it's now not; but I also feel disconected from myself, I am a furry; and I am catkin (therian believe is the correct term but I can't spell it very well) however the feline side of me (Alley) I just seem to be unable to get settled with her; it's like she's trying to tell me something but I can only hear muffled noises rather than clear words;
I luckily can still hear little me very well though, which relieves some of the stress I feel on my shoulders.
Feels good to at least have some of this down somewhere and not all bottled up like a splosion,
o.o if you read all that comment with the answer to 4 X (2+2) = (16 the answer is) and I'll see about trying to sketch something for ya in free time, (not guaranteed though)
As some of you who watch me may realise I don't really seem to post art here that often, I hope to change that slightly with the coming months however I've been in a bit of a bad slump recently;
IRL work has become insane - 45+ hours each week with even days off I've been getting bombarded by colleges unable to do their job because they can't remember even simple training, it's made focusing on the outside world hard because I don't want to think about it, thought things would return to normality once we got a new manager and he settled after his training but nope, apparently I (a sales assisstant acting keyholder ) knows more about how to do his job that he does! so it makes me a bit grr and panic'd because I then feel like if I have an issue where I don't understand something, there's no one to turn too in the work place which is where most of my time ends up spent.
Also losing out on a lot of sleep with the warm weather being here - I don't sleep that well to begin with in summer because my body clock wakes me up with the sun; (even with blackout curtains it somehow knows) though the warm weather makes it even harder to get to sleep and stay asleep, which then means I'm not resting enough so I'm even more tired after each day;
I also feel as though I'm missing something right now; I recently got "engaged" to my partner and the ring broke so it needed to go for repairs today; and after getting used to it being there it's odd that it's now not; but I also feel disconected from myself, I am a furry; and I am catkin (therian believe is the correct term but I can't spell it very well) however the feline side of me (Alley) I just seem to be unable to get settled with her; it's like she's trying to tell me something but I can only hear muffled noises rather than clear words;
I luckily can still hear little me very well though, which relieves some of the stress I feel on my shoulders.
Feels good to at least have some of this down somewhere and not all bottled up like a splosion,
o.o if you read all that comment with the answer to 4 X (2+2) = (16 the answer is) and I'll see about trying to sketch something for ya in free time, (not guaranteed though)
