To explain my absence/lack of communication...In short life is not going well for me financially, career-wise and all-round within my family.

I apologize to my fullest extent. This has been most unprofessional on my part and all you guys wanted was the items you paid for in a timely manner.

I know that this is no excuse. I shouldn't have ever let it get like this, but getting time to draw AND deal with a slew of really upsetting stuff...I haven't been able to handle it at all.

I'm not good mentally and I'm making myself sick overall because of it. I get onto my computer, try to draw what is owed and I start panicking because it hits me instantly how long I've been trying to just get everything completed. I lost my job recently due to a major escalation in my anxiety (which I haven't needed to really worry about since prior to my animation college days) and I couldn't handle having panic attacks in my workplace over customers yelling at me over the phone. (I will never work in customer service for a call center in my life again, I give major respect to people who can take that kind of stress and verbal abuse on a daily basis.)


I'm barely sleeping and I've even tried to distract myself with newer hobbies as per my doctor's request, then draw when I've felt calm...And BAM anxiety again.

**I don't expect anyone to read up on my issues below, I'm mostly venting because these are the things that have plagued me and I feel like I need to put them out there finally after so long. By all rights, skip down to the refund process.**


-The family Low-Down-

My grandmother's cancer has spread through-out her lungs (she already had a portion removed a while back) and she refuses to go through another round of treatments. She is the rock in our family which has sparked a lot of unresolved issues with our family members (she holds the mortgage for our house/various other things). On top of that my step-dad got fired (he was earning the most in the family), so my mom and I have had to pick things up by her working full-time at her minimum wage job while I babysit my cousin randomly (and all the money goes to the house bills/my parents).

The father of my son is rarely taking him on visits (maybe once every few months and I've tried my best to get him to agree to more) and so I have to go through the headache of contacting him when my son starts crying that he misses his dad. I barely have enough time to deal with the man's absentee parent issues, much less figure out how to finally take him to court over support/getting official custody...As well as deal with my son's speech and sensory stuff to boot which has been so very frustrating.

On another note, I just learned last night my step-dad NEVER mailed the few badges I did have done -they were sitting in our letter-holder in the kitchen for I don't even remember how long ago-?! I couldn't even get mad at him forgetting (he started doing a day course to become a dispatcher and has been busy), I should've done it myself...I'm just so frazzled right now that I wish I could curl up and never get up again.

I haven't even been able to properly communicate most of this my closest friends and I feel like I'm sinking further into an endless muck of things. I'm sorry everyone and I wish I could push through this with the speed I had for the FE two years ago...But honestly if I can't even get out a sketch at this point or finish coloring a lined badge...

It's definitely time to do the right thing and refund you all.

If anyone doesn't want a refund and rather wait...I can try to do my best to finish, I just don't know when it'll get done honestly.


Refund process:

-Submit me a note with this form:


Name:

Paypal:

Item being Refunded:

-On the 1st of August IF I should have my last work cheque by then, I will send out your refund through my paypal. In the event my cheque does not come then this will be PUSHED BACK to August 20th when I'm expecting a government pay to come in (even then it may not happen if things go awry).

-Please, please do not lecture or vent on me...I sincerely can't handle it right now. I'm already at the point I just want to quit taking future commissions/stop drawing even for myself at this point. :( I may not respond until I send you your refund.