Tired:
I'm just... Tired of being tired. Tired of seeing those around me having so much to deal with and nothing I can do to help them. I'm tired of feeling like a stepping stone and only getting a pat on the back as a reward, or feeling like I'm a cork that's keeping the ship afloat. I'm tired of having friends but no one interested enough to help me on my projects (due to either time or personal reasons.) I'm tired of feeling empty inside when I have so much to be thankful for. I'm tired of not being able to be involved because of these feelings in these vent journals. I'm tired of the idiocy I'm surrounded by but am stuck knowing I can't do anything about it. I'm tired of having such big hopes and projects just to lose them to something going wrong at the worst time. (Causing me to forget about it or to put it off for later and never get to it)

What I've gained:
Of all the things I'm grateful for its that my mom and my mate has been there for me and supporting me, the friends I've made that have stuck with me and kept me doing things, the fact that god is trying to get my siblings to try and rekindle what friendship we had. (my sis actually joining the furry schtick via telegram and sharing with me a group of furs in Kentucky)