A lot of what I'm about to write most of you don't know; I wanted to talk about my past year as Revel, as well as moving forward. However; I wanted to start by talking about a time before Revel existed.

The lowest point in my life happened about a year ago and lasted for a few months, the group that was my closest friends suddenly had decided to hate me for reasons I am still unsure of. From what I've been able to piece together what caused this was my closest friend coming to hate and to coax others to hate me because of something that had happened, something I was never told. For months they emotionally abused me, claiming I had to earn my place as their friends again. At that point I should have realized that it wasn't worth it. That they weren't my friends, and for about three months I tried to get back to normal, to just go back to how it was before, but all that I got was being told I'm a horrible person. For a long time I started to believe it, it's the only thing that made any sense in my mind. The person that was my closest friend knew I was a furry, back then I had even shared with them a character that predates Revel, yet after all this I no longer wanted to be reminded of all this, all the pain they caused me. It's hard writing about it even now. And so I did away with that character, because I feared it would always remind me of the friends I had lost.

It was about this time that a new page began to turn in my life. When I was at my lowest was also when Daddy, my love, my mate, began to fall in love with me. Knowing each other IRL he wanted to see me happy and to cheer me up. It was because of him that I was able to keep going and eventually one of us said we loved the other and our relationship blossomed from there. At first daddy didn't know I was a furry but he quickly came to learn that I was, and I was suprised to learn that he was too. This is when the design of Revel started to be worked on. After a while Revel and Aidan's designs were decided upon, the soft pastel pink blue and white of Revel to be cute and kind and innocent. It was not long after that I told Daddy that I was a babyfur. Daddy 100% supported me as I was "breaking" into the babyfur scene, buying me all sorts of plushies and a pacifier and clips. He really wanted to make me feel special and I really did. What he was doing for me was amazing and really helped with all the grief I had been going through.

Yet it wasn't just Daddy that helped me when I was down, the Babyfur community really helped me in expression a piece of who I was. Getting to talk to other Cubs and listen to thier experiences and stories. As the "new cub on the block" I was made to feel really special and made a lot of friends. The support and community I felt made me very happy, and it wasn't long before I started to commission artists whose work I admired. Of course I've gotten the chance to "expand" a little. I made a telegram and Twitter for Revel and it is some of the best decisions I've made. I have also fulfilled a dream of mine, to take care of other Cubs (at least in RP) and it is something I've had a desire for, along side of being a cub myself.

Moving forward I'm not quite sure what I'll do, where Revel might pop up. I really would like to attend a local convention this year, but might have to wait. I would really like to get Revel "themed" clothing and am looking into that. I really want to be able to hang out with Cubs IRL. And of course I'm going to keep up FA, Twitter, and Telegram. Don't worry cute art is always a given.

So yeah it's been on big crazy year, it's had its ups and it's downs but for the most part it's pretty amazing. Thank you for taking the time to read through all my thoughts and feelings it feels good to get it all out there. Today is the 1 year anniversary of Revel, it's so unbelievably crazy how much he has effected my life.