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An important announcement about myself
8 years ago
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I wanted to talk about something very personal to me. Something that I've struggled to deal with and accept for awhile now. I am transgender.
I have some early memories, back when I was 10 years old. I can clearly remember looking in the mirror at myself and wishing that I was a girl. And that maybe I had come out wrong. That I wasn't meant to be a boy. When I was 14 I remember my parents openly talking about their distain for transgender individuals, at that point I had been working up the courage to talk to them about it myself. After that I sorta just bottled up all the feelings inside me for the most part.
Growing up in Texas, in a religious family made it hard for me to accept this about myself. At times I would try to make progress forward, but always find myself getting scared and always going back. At a point I convinced myself that I would just always be male, unhappy, but accepted by the people around me. I realize now, that if I'm going to be happy with myself I need to make steps towards becoming who I want to be. Who I'm meant to be. The people I've meet in this community, my friends, shall be my support and my rock.
For now I need to focus on school, and unfortunately that doesn't give me the fiscal opportunity to go forward with transgender therapy just yet. I don't currently plan to try and ask my parents for money to help me go through this. Honestly I doubt they would help. However, I would like to take other steps here online, and in my life, to be true to myself. I would like to ask that from now on, that female pronouns be used to describe me. I have made the decision for my fursonas to remain male for now however, but transition with me when the time comes.
This is a really big deal for me, for the first time in my life I feel excited about what the future holds for me. Who I'll be. Thank you for taking the time to read this journal. It really means a bunch to me.
I have some early memories, back when I was 10 years old. I can clearly remember looking in the mirror at myself and wishing that I was a girl. And that maybe I had come out wrong. That I wasn't meant to be a boy. When I was 14 I remember my parents openly talking about their distain for transgender individuals, at that point I had been working up the courage to talk to them about it myself. After that I sorta just bottled up all the feelings inside me for the most part.
Growing up in Texas, in a religious family made it hard for me to accept this about myself. At times I would try to make progress forward, but always find myself getting scared and always going back. At a point I convinced myself that I would just always be male, unhappy, but accepted by the people around me. I realize now, that if I'm going to be happy with myself I need to make steps towards becoming who I want to be. Who I'm meant to be. The people I've meet in this community, my friends, shall be my support and my rock.
For now I need to focus on school, and unfortunately that doesn't give me the fiscal opportunity to go forward with transgender therapy just yet. I don't currently plan to try and ask my parents for money to help me go through this. Honestly I doubt they would help. However, I would like to take other steps here online, and in my life, to be true to myself. I would like to ask that from now on, that female pronouns be used to describe me. I have made the decision for my fursonas to remain male for now however, but transition with me when the time comes.
This is a really big deal for me, for the first time in my life I feel excited about what the future holds for me. Who I'll be. Thank you for taking the time to read this journal. It really means a bunch to me.
*Hugs*
You've got my support no matter what.
Also fellow Texan here *raises hand* I feel for you here. There's a good many things I love about my home state but the general attitude toward LGBTQ and minorities in general makes me sad. It was hard enough telling my parents that I denounced religion, I can't imagine how they'd have reacted like if I'd brought a boy home wanting to marry instead of my wife (bisexual).
Ah well.
In any case I wish you well! And I hope you'll get to start therapy sooner rather than later
I support you!
It's not an easy path, but if it's the path you do certainly want to take, it will finish with a beautiful understanding of yourself, and a much more enjoyable future ^¬^
best wishes Usiku Mwezi~