I'm not sure why. Like...I don't have as much motivation to draw as I used to. I don't know why I'm like this right now. I don't know if it's linked to the DeviantArt incident I had or just the sheer amount of depression I've been going through. I just don't know.
Like a lot of weird stuff has been happening recently. For instance I've been questioning the meaning of a lot of things or questioning the point of doing certain things. I've been really upset and depressed for no reason, well except when my grandfather passed away late last month because I had a reason to be depressed. But at other times I'd be sitting in my room relaxing when suddenly this giant wave of depression hits me for no reason whatsoever. This sudden depression happens so much it's almost a daily thing now.
It's just been really tough lately, things are being more difficult than it should. I just don't know what is going on. Some of this is just so upsetting because sometimes I can't get anything done so I just lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling.
Maybe I just need time to think, who knows.