idk why im doing this but here it goes to everyone out there who cares I’m going through some bad shit i know i have talent and wish just wish maybe just maybe someone somewhere will see this and say hey this guy has something we need to have the world hear. hi I’m Joey I’m 21 and my mom died of pancreatic cancer ever since then it has been a depression battle for me drinking smoking druging myself up to think I’m fine for the past year thats what iv been doing this year i stopped drug using drinking very little smoking not much what i have to say is i need some help and i know i can do good i love people people are amazing and I’m alone in this fight and have lost so many people i just want someone who i can tell in there voice who is there for me and stuff and i would love to help people i have gone to some dark places in my mind and i got out now I’m stuck in this one were i cant tell were i am i wake up thinking yay my mom didn’t die but then my eyes open and I’m here in a different house were i feel unwanted and just like i need to get away from my life before my mom passing was fun and happy now i put on my fake smile and life and go along for this ride we call life and what i no see if life is a two road thing and I’m not even on any road i made my own path and its killing me im becoming self destructive and just wanting to see the word burn and have me alone forever just me and none else i wish just wish maybe ill find someone or even something to help me