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Feeling empty inside....
9 years ago
When everything is going your way. Something just has to kick you in the balls to knock you back down. A close friend of mine suddenly passed away on Wednesday out of the blue. We don't even know the cause yet. And now my father is about to pass soon as well. He has had lung cancer in the past and was in remission, now we find out he has brain cancer. The same cancer that took my mother from me about 5 months ago is the same one taking my father. I just dont know what to do. I have been around the world. Been to places you wouldn't even dream of going for our country. Been shot at, blown up, stabbed multiple times while being in the Army. And have enjoyed seeing my father being proud of what I have become. And now I feel so lost and dont know what to do when he goes.
Besides I've know the side you've shown to me over the years, you're quite bold. Either way, I'm here for you if you ever need a friend just to talk to
I know it's really hard to suffer loss, especially as much as you have in the past year. I can't tell you what to do, but I can tell you that I've felt the same way - in fact I did, in 2011, when I went to a total of 11 funerals in an 8-month period. Friends, relatives, my housemate's father.
We're here because we affect so many lives, and you have to be positive of one thing: that you being in these people's lives was very important to them. they loved you, and still do, wherever they are now. You have to just think about all the good things you shared with your friend, your mother, your father, and hold onto those. Because those are the memories that help you continue forward.
You said you felt empty inside... fill yourself with fond memories of what you had and still have. I promise, it might not necessarily help you get over anything - but you will feel less empty, and less helpless, I'm sure.
My thoughts are with you.
Many of my family members have passed as well. I did not see
some of them as often as I would have liked. My dad died after
only seeing my son once when he was about 3 months old.
It sucks in so many ways!
I spent 6 years at Ft. Hood and one of those years we were the
Funeral Detail. So many die and had only a few people show up.
Sounds like your father has gotten see your Military career and
has shown his pride in your achievements! The only thing you
can truly do now is be there for him as much as you can!