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Touching Base For Those Who Don't Follow My Twitter
9 years ago
For those who do not follow me on twitter (@CooperPerian) I have been touching base from time to time about my current work climate and headspace. I've been sort of MIA these last couple months and honestly it was for the best on my end.
I know a few of you are waiting on some art from me. I am still going to do them, I just don't know when right now. This will be explained.
For many years now I have had a really unhealthy relationship with my art as a whole. I spent a lot of time in really toxic professional relationships, living in the shadows of people who thought themselves my better, and treated me as such. This made it so that when I finally found friends and colleagues willing to cheer me on, willing to believe in me, I was too far gone.
I get into my own head a lot, I have a lot of anxiety and fight with depression pretty regularly. This is a big source of that for me. I used to love drawing and never really put much thought into it but now like a lot of things in life my own mind betrays me on the regular over it and just piles a shitload of stress on me over nothing. I am working on finding help for that but on top of the heat waves that just passed, dealing with legal issues over ODSP, fighting with my doctor over my many health issues and being horribly slowed down by insomnia I am just not in a good place. I am really stressed out and fighting with my hand to do as it's told is the last thing I can handle.
I've slowly been placing together my motivation again it's just taking time, I am not okay, I can barely feed myself without outside intervention, but I know I will make it through, after all I got this far. I just need time, and money, but mostly time, to figure out what steps will get me where I need to be. I have considered quitting, but I want to know why I am unhappy as an artist instead of ending up full of regret and still being unhappy. So things might be spotty but I am trying, just trying not to push too hard right now because I have a lot going on.
Thought you all would wanna know. TL;DR art is coming, just at a much slower pace cuz I am burned out from stress.
I know a few of you are waiting on some art from me. I am still going to do them, I just don't know when right now. This will be explained.
For many years now I have had a really unhealthy relationship with my art as a whole. I spent a lot of time in really toxic professional relationships, living in the shadows of people who thought themselves my better, and treated me as such. This made it so that when I finally found friends and colleagues willing to cheer me on, willing to believe in me, I was too far gone.
I get into my own head a lot, I have a lot of anxiety and fight with depression pretty regularly. This is a big source of that for me. I used to love drawing and never really put much thought into it but now like a lot of things in life my own mind betrays me on the regular over it and just piles a shitload of stress on me over nothing. I am working on finding help for that but on top of the heat waves that just passed, dealing with legal issues over ODSP, fighting with my doctor over my many health issues and being horribly slowed down by insomnia I am just not in a good place. I am really stressed out and fighting with my hand to do as it's told is the last thing I can handle.
I've slowly been placing together my motivation again it's just taking time, I am not okay, I can barely feed myself without outside intervention, but I know I will make it through, after all I got this far. I just need time, and money, but mostly time, to figure out what steps will get me where I need to be. I have considered quitting, but I want to know why I am unhappy as an artist instead of ending up full of regret and still being unhappy. So things might be spotty but I am trying, just trying not to push too hard right now because I have a lot going on.
Thought you all would wanna know. TL;DR art is coming, just at a much slower pace cuz I am burned out from stress.
Loves ya bunches, goober. <3