This is a lengthy journal, it's not looking for pity, prayers maybe, but it's mostly just an update.

Someone close has been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and I had to fly back to Illinois where I visited my hometown and hopped from family member to family member, and eventually spent time with that family member.

The trip sucked. I lost all but one of my 3DS games during the trip. Family drama ruined the whole thing. And I got incredibly blueballed so there was that. But what was possibly what uh, got me down in a depression again was seeing my her for what could be the last time ever. I love living here in Tucson, and I love the friends I am making. And I am excited for my future here now more than ever, because I did not enjoy going back north. I did enjoy my first flight ever, where I ascended into the air and it felt like I was a literal kaiju, growing through the air. That was invigurating. But now I'm a week behind on FA, I'm going to be missing a whole week's pay which will put me back $200, and I may have to earn some friends back just because of how miserable I was on the trip that it made me not myself.

Anyways, I'm back now. And I have 5 hours to go through 5 days of porn. Help