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9 years ago
So, I will probably reflect on this a bit more in coming entries, but here's a synopsis of what's been going on.
The Gnostic journey is not an easy one. In gathering the scraps of light left in this crazy existence, we sometimes stumble and drop what we've gathered, and if we don't remember what we've gathered so far we can fall into total despair and despondency.
Well, friends, I fell into despair for a good while after Sandra's death. It wasn't the only thing going on though. It was just one of several catalysts that snatched the rug out from under me and left me fumbling in the dark for a very long time.
I hate to admit this, but at one point I was so convinced of the pointlessness of everything I'd done that I nearly took my own life.
It took some deep reflection and a chance to really open up to people I trust with these issues before I started to heal. And slowly, I've begun to feel as if I can carry on emotionally (even if a month of severe depression has left me feeling like a mess physically).
Let me get back to everyone in the near future. I'm still trying to decide how much of this very personal journey to share since it does go more into past lives than I care to really talk openly about. I try not to make this all about where I've been in other bodies, after all! This is about where I am here and now, and (if anyone should come forward) for others as well to share their journey.
The Gnostic journey is not an easy one. In gathering the scraps of light left in this crazy existence, we sometimes stumble and drop what we've gathered, and if we don't remember what we've gathered so far we can fall into total despair and despondency.
Well, friends, I fell into despair for a good while after Sandra's death. It wasn't the only thing going on though. It was just one of several catalysts that snatched the rug out from under me and left me fumbling in the dark for a very long time.
I hate to admit this, but at one point I was so convinced of the pointlessness of everything I'd done that I nearly took my own life.
It took some deep reflection and a chance to really open up to people I trust with these issues before I started to heal. And slowly, I've begun to feel as if I can carry on emotionally (even if a month of severe depression has left me feeling like a mess physically).
Let me get back to everyone in the near future. I'm still trying to decide how much of this very personal journey to share since it does go more into past lives than I care to really talk openly about. I try not to make this all about where I've been in other bodies, after all! This is about where I am here and now, and (if anyone should come forward) for others as well to share their journey.
