Hi guys.

I know like no one reads my journal, but still, on the off chance that people do and just don't comment or something. Plus I like to pretend I have an audience or ... you know, friends. I have been a lonely fur lately, and I think that's why my furry feels have resurfaced so heavily lately. For months, I didn't feel in a furry headspace, but now he's come back, my Xoka, and is screaming for attention and I have no one to share him with. I have ''people i talk to'' in the furry community but no real friends. no one who i can ... just be myself without having a guard up all the time. I know this is my fault. I don't know how to reach out to people, i don't know how to not be awkward, but I'm on nearly all the furry platforms, I just need to figure out what to say to people, or learn how to draw or write furry stuff. I have nothing to offer the community no wonder I don't fit in. I have a handful of fursonas and can't draw any of them. Commissions by artists I like are either closed, or too expensive for me right now.


So I just want to curl up in a kitsune ball and sleep away this feeling.


Sigh.

~M