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Never quit dreaming y'all
9 years ago
I have two fursuits, been to several cons, camping and adventure over past year...
Crossed the US and Canada both for work and fun with weeks off and time to think.
Have been clean and sober 30 days today for the first time in 17 years.
All this and I still hate my reflection, still looking for something, still just a lost pup o.o
One minute I want to build a work room and pursue building suits the next just go back to fitting in and getting rid of everything furry... only problem I would still be me...
I think it's funny, success really doesn't change a thing.
Being stable with a carrier and time off with the opportunity to go anywhere in the world is kinda pointless if the only problem you have in the world is looking back at you every day.
I always felt every writer, poet, artist, singer, actor was depressed or at least on a different track then everyone else.
When there's nothing left to do or gain do you give everything away and start over?
Spent a year living without limitation and only got burned, now I'm just searching for a new horizon and left with nothing, but a headache x.x
Life is unexpectedly annoying and pointless, but still dreaming thought at times I can't even remember what the dream is. One paw in front of the other until time run's out and possibly i find out what the point was.
Happy days y'all
Never quit dreaming
Crossed the US and Canada both for work and fun with weeks off and time to think.
Have been clean and sober 30 days today for the first time in 17 years.
All this and I still hate my reflection, still looking for something, still just a lost pup o.o
One minute I want to build a work room and pursue building suits the next just go back to fitting in and getting rid of everything furry... only problem I would still be me...
I think it's funny, success really doesn't change a thing.
Being stable with a carrier and time off with the opportunity to go anywhere in the world is kinda pointless if the only problem you have in the world is looking back at you every day.
I always felt every writer, poet, artist, singer, actor was depressed or at least on a different track then everyone else.
When there's nothing left to do or gain do you give everything away and start over?
Spent a year living without limitation and only got burned, now I'm just searching for a new horizon and left with nothing, but a headache x.x
Life is unexpectedly annoying and pointless, but still dreaming thought at times I can't even remember what the dream is. One paw in front of the other until time run's out and possibly i find out what the point was.
Happy days y'all
Never quit dreaming
On top of using alcohol to deal with people and depression along with other drugs since I was 12 and heavier about 16 going to be going through hell for a while.
Glad I helped a little ^.^
All I ever wanted just let my personal life loose control x.x
Most never noticed, but life catches up to everyone.
Thanks, it's a crazy ride... not sure why I always make myself the crash dummy :p
I dunno what to tell ya man but you seemed cool when we hung out at BLFC and I think you're a good guy.
I get the most out of my life by enjoying the present, or what I can of it. Variety is the spice of life. Learn some new hobbies or get into a new sport or something. Goals, learning, progress, endorphins, always moving forward, these are the things that help me stay positive. We're young and still have a ton of life ahead of us and lots of time to try new things.
Maybe you don't know who or what you really want to be yet but if you're not happy where you're at then maybe a change of scenery might be good.
Hope you feel better soon!
You know how to reach me if you ever want to chat.
Didn't mean to sound like a downer just perspective... have always been depressed, I try to enjoy it and the hills just thinking I might try a new path, but actually kinda enjoying the one I'm on for now ^.^
When I feel like I've taken something as far as I can sometimes drop it and move on, but hard to ever be stable like that... just being the crazy pup I am and never liked the fall or winter driving x.x
Kinda stressful, also might be booking next BLFC soon, but it's in June now... not good timing :/