Something has happened that will make everything, everything that was about to happen and that was going on. Everything is on hold. Some forever and some just until I am back on track.

My fiancé has left me.
I no longer have a gf, I no longer have cats, I no longer live happily with my own little family.

I loved(and still love) her dearly, but we had our issues.

On Saturday afternoon I came home from a sleepover at a friend's place to an empty apartment.
She had packed her things and left me overnight. Taken everything and everyone that was hers. It was a horrible shock, a horrible feeling. My greatest fear had come true, she had left me.
My greatest fear is to be abandoned. Abandoned by the person I love most.

I will not write out everything about this here.
If you want to give me support or so, leave a comment or send me a message on twitter or telegram.

I do not know how I will manage, but I will have to somehow.
I have never lived alone more than less than a month.

I will have to start over completely.
I can't keep making fursuits since the sowing machine was hers.
I can't escape to the world of gaming since the gaming computer was hers.
It's only been three days now.

I could list forever what I can't do now.
But I have to try and get my life back on track.

I need to find out what I want to do, what I want to become. WHO I want to become.
I have built up my life, plans and dreams around her, because I really thought I'd grow old with her.

Now that I have no clue I have to start from scratch.

So Not that I have been active lately but I will be even less active probably this first month.

I hope everyone else is doing well.