I have fallen out of my twice a month habit of posting updates.

The summer did not go quite as planned, though that should be quite obvious. There was not much of it left by the time Anthrocon was over, and what was left was spent enjoyably, though I cannot say productively.

The general theme for this journal is discipline. I feel as though I lack it, though others assure me that I do not. While I am in no danger, the need to develop some greater discipline in myself has become apparent. I need to budget money, budget time, make sure I'm sleeping, eating, doing laundry, studying, enjoying myself, and working on projects, as well as coping with the few difficulties I've encountered along the way.

But these goals, while already a bit daunting, have proven even more difficult as I feel myself slipping mentally a bit further. Sadly, the initial honeymoon period after moving out has not sustained itself, mostly because I squandered it not knowing what to do. Even now, writing this journal, I know there are better things for me to be working on.

I've become a bit less cheerful, and a bit more broody and moody than I would like. I am forgetful of things. I'm feeling my anxiety creeping into new situations, since I've not eradicated it, but merely uprooted it.

Also, my primary computer has broken, which has slowed me down quite considerably. I still have a notebook and access to desktops pretty much everywhere I go, but it is far less convenient than having a computer all to myself that isn't terribly slow.

However, not everything is looking bleak. I've managed to continue seeing my family (most of it, that is), and I've been writing. Further, I've gotten to spend more time with my mate and have really sunk a lot of my time and energy into being with him, which has been a tremendous boost to my mood. His family has accepted me in a way I did not think possible. There's a great deal of good news on that front as well, though I've not talked about it publicly before and don't feel like doing so now. I also got to attend a wedding a discovered what a girdle was for first hand. That was.... well, better it was me than anyone else there. At least it got a laugh.

I've been introduced to the local furs, who are nice, though they move in their own circles and I in mine. Not to say they aren't welcoming or that they're not the sort of people I'd like to know, rather I have quite enough trouble keeping up with the people I already know and feel more attached to already.

Further, there is some progress in terms of my discipline and mood. Recently I discovered that I can sustain myself for very little money, and that I can in fact budget myself such that I can afford my rent, my food, and even save a bit extra to purchase some games.

The loss of my computer means that I'm going to have to replace it, which is pretty nice when I think about it, since that means I'll have a full blow desktop that's quite capable of handling all the games I'd like to play.

Also, there are a pair of kittens living in the parking lot of my apartment complex. With winter coming on, I'm a bit worried about them. Maybe I'll look into making them some sort of shelter so they can at least not freeze during the winter. They've been hiding in the undercarriages of cars for shelter thus far, and I can't imagine that's the most comfortable, safe, or warm. Though, at least they have the engine for a space heater.

That's all for now. I've been missing you all. Match, if you read this, send me some random texts from time to time.

Adios till the next time I remember my journals.

~Velth