Right now. I'm wishing that I could go back to the day that I met you.. That day during the Bele event.. Pretend you didn't exist like I do everyone else. Because had I known you would cause this much heart break I wouldn't have tried to be your friend. I wouldn't have acknowledge you more than any other person that I met. You would've been a face amongst the crowd and I wouldn't have cared in the slightest way. But no.. I had to let my emotions take control after I said "no more.. I can't take going through the same thing every damn time.." I let you in... I let you catch a glimpse at my heart and what did I get? Nothing.. But pain.. And regret.. And a unbearable feeling of sadness that drains my energy and makes me feel.. Nothing. Why did I EVER think we could be something? Why did I EVER believe you weren't like the others? Why did I open my heart to you.. When I knew I was going to be hurt eventually.. WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO STUPID?!?! I can't see what's right from wrong when it comes to you as because of YOU.. because of you.. I can't be the same.. I can't snap back into a state of mind where EVERYTHING was "okay." Where I could hide everything.. why... Why did I ever think any of this would turn out good...?