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9 years ago
<=--=--=.o Derp o.=--=--=> Where to begin. *sighs* I don't update much... I keep telling myself its just artist's block or... whatever the fuck. But the truth is... I have some kind of serious depression or anxiety issue. I've lost all motivation to work on bloody anything, and anytime I do get any inspiration, stress and worries and self-doubts paralyze me until the inspiration passes... I only owe a couple of people art at this point, and you know who you are and I will get it done... eventually.
Me and KB have a new roommate, someone who's house got destroyed in the recent flooding. She's really wonderful and has been a big help, both financially and emotionally. Though she does have her own issues, like the aforementioned flooded house. So she sometimes needs our support, as well, and that can be taxing for someone in my situation...
Work has been a great big pile of stress for me. My co-workers make fun of me constantly, although thats probably just my current emotional state talking. My boss has been great, but... I dunno. I keep wondering if its time for me to find another job... again. And that just... fucking pisses me off. I dont want to start over AGAIN...
*sighs*
I've come out as transgendered, IRL. I may have mentioned that, I dunno... My mom has been a huge pain about it, and I'm on the verge of cutting her from my life. But I know she's had a lot of family bullshit to deal with, especially now that my grandma's husband passed away. She's in a nursing home now, by the way. I know that can't have been easy for her, so I'm trying not to add to it by getting in her face about my transition, but... I simultaneously feel like this should not be so damaging to her. Difficult to keep track of, perhaps, difficult to remember to call me my new name, but... I dont know... fuck it.
I had my first real, adult doctor's appointment this week. It was... really refreshing to speak to a healthcare professional on my own terms and be treated like a person, an adult and be given answers to the innumerable questions Ive had over the years about my body. I'm still on the fence about HRT, but I was referred to a mental health clinic that I will be calling tomorrow to get an appointment and hopefully finally get some help for all this shit my brain is doing.
That's all. Sorry for the language.
Me and KB have a new roommate, someone who's house got destroyed in the recent flooding. She's really wonderful and has been a big help, both financially and emotionally. Though she does have her own issues, like the aforementioned flooded house. So she sometimes needs our support, as well, and that can be taxing for someone in my situation...
Work has been a great big pile of stress for me. My co-workers make fun of me constantly, although thats probably just my current emotional state talking. My boss has been great, but... I dunno. I keep wondering if its time for me to find another job... again. And that just... fucking pisses me off. I dont want to start over AGAIN...
*sighs*
I've come out as transgendered, IRL. I may have mentioned that, I dunno... My mom has been a huge pain about it, and I'm on the verge of cutting her from my life. But I know she's had a lot of family bullshit to deal with, especially now that my grandma's husband passed away. She's in a nursing home now, by the way. I know that can't have been easy for her, so I'm trying not to add to it by getting in her face about my transition, but... I simultaneously feel like this should not be so damaging to her. Difficult to keep track of, perhaps, difficult to remember to call me my new name, but... I dont know... fuck it.
I had my first real, adult doctor's appointment this week. It was... really refreshing to speak to a healthcare professional on my own terms and be treated like a person, an adult and be given answers to the innumerable questions Ive had over the years about my body. I'm still on the fence about HRT, but I was referred to a mental health clinic that I will be calling tomorrow to get an appointment and hopefully finally get some help for all this shit my brain is doing.
That's all. Sorry for the language.
Anyone gives you shit, point 'em out and I'll stomp 'em~