I don't know what to do anymore... Its like no matter what i do, everyone around me is always blaming me and angry at me and i always fuck everything up...
I used to think that if i just tried really hard and reached as far as i could i would make everyone happy, but now its like they don't care anymore and i've lost everyone...
I tried, i really tried, i promis i tried... I'm so tired of this though... I want them to just notice me and take interest in what i do, but they don't...
I spend so long working on things like art and drawings and youtube videos but all they think i'm doing is playing video games on my laptop or using up all the wifi to upload a video because it takes all night to upload a 15 minute long video... They don't realize how much work and time i put into these things and they just think its something stupid and they're not supportive of me at all... And, sometimes, i still feel like i'm not loved...