Worst day of my life (Death in Family)
9 years ago
General
Yesterday our Beloved Beagle past......my wife and I had to make the Incredibly hard decision to "Release him from his pain".
He hasn't been feeling well for a while, and Cancer had sunk it's long dark claws into his side in the form of a very large and hard mass behind his right front leg.
For two days he could not eat and vomited until nothing was left.....we had to watch him suffer those two days with hope of any recovery quickly fading.
He exhaled his final breath lying in my arms....
My heart is hurting and my mind aches..... I haven't cried in so long I didn't think I could anymore. But for the last two days my tears have flowed......burning hot tears streaming down my face uncontrollably.
He was my son! We can not have children of our own, and so He was our son......I miss him so much....he was my Buddy, Best Friend and Partner in crime! I love Him So Much!! My heart is empty......my mind is Broken...
Rest in peace my little boy.....and Always know We Loved you like no other for You are our little boy.....Forever and forever....we shall meet again my Dearest Friend and only son I've ever had! All of our Love Forever! ♥♥♥♥♥
He hasn't been feeling well for a while, and Cancer had sunk it's long dark claws into his side in the form of a very large and hard mass behind his right front leg.
For two days he could not eat and vomited until nothing was left.....we had to watch him suffer those two days with hope of any recovery quickly fading.
He exhaled his final breath lying in my arms....
My heart is hurting and my mind aches..... I haven't cried in so long I didn't think I could anymore. But for the last two days my tears have flowed......burning hot tears streaming down my face uncontrollably.
He was my son! We can not have children of our own, and so He was our son......I miss him so much....he was my Buddy, Best Friend and Partner in crime! I love Him So Much!! My heart is empty......my mind is Broken...
Rest in peace my little boy.....and Always know We Loved you like no other for You are our little boy.....Forever and forever....we shall meet again my Dearest Friend and only son I've ever had! All of our Love Forever! ♥♥♥♥♥
FA+

*warm loving hugs...
V.
Thank you my friend. *tightly hugs back*
or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you;
or speak to the earth, and it will teach you,
or let the fish in the sea inform you
Which of all these does not know
that the hand of the Lord has done this?
In his hand is the life of every creature
and the breath of all mankind.
Job-12
I know where he is and yes you will see him again.
He was so Very special......my heart feels empty now....it hurts. I Know he's not suffering anymore. ...and that his pain is finally at ease. But I miss him So bad.....and I can not fill this hole in my heart.....
Again Thank you for Your kind words......They are very heart felt and most appreciated. ....♡
It's a strange thing, how a loving act can still feel painful and tragic. But in the end, the easement of his suffering was the ultimate kindness.
My thoughts and humble sympathy are with you. Keep well my friend. I'm never more than a shout away.
I lost my fuzzy guy to bone cancer. It was a heartbreaking experience.
But knowing that His suffering and pain are over.....I Do find very comforting. It's the pain of knowing I will never see him waiting at the door for me in the evening, or greeting me with his unbridled joy and sheer Happiness after a long and hard day.....not getting up in the morning with me, seeing me off to work....These are the things that hurt my heart so.....
He was so very Loving and loved All who knew him.....equally All who Loved Him the same. He was like no other.....and my heart hurts for him.
I am so very sorry to hear this my friend. ...then perhaps more than most you understand my suffering. ......it is Truly a Dire feeling that I would not wish on Anyone. I am so sorry for your loss.....I wish my mind were not in such a turmoil of pain......I Believe we will see them again, one day we'll be reunited with those we've lost......those who meant So Very much to us....Those who held such a place in our heart's...... *hugs tightly*
The sun will shine again Dar. It always rains before it shines. Please stay well my friend. If you ever need to talk, there's always room in my inbox for you. :)
Loosing anyone we love is a horrible agony and challenge to get through. It always seems so unfair. But with our furry family, the pain is almost worsened by the fact that their lifespans are not measured the same way as us humans. I would love nothing more than to have a dog, cat, or horse that could live to be in their 70's, 80's or 90's. What a life that would be to see so much. And when medical complications occur it is so much more painful. When we love our pets, our furry family our companions, we love them hard and passionately. They become such an integrated and regular part of our every day lives that we cannot imagine life without them.
It sounds like your precious baby had a wonderful love filled life with you, and I think someday you could show similar love and affection to another furry baby someday. Nothing, no other dog will ever every replace the sweet, amazing baby you had, but it sounds like you have so much love to give. So much.
So I know positive thinking and comments might not help right now, but just like you have said to me many times now I will say it to you as well. When you are ready, when it is time, keep your chin up. Your baby loved you as much as you love him. I know a beagles love. When they bond with someone, they bond with someone completely and it stays that way until they pass from this life. I currently have a dear dear wonderful amazing friend who is family to me and always will be. His beagle/basset hound mix has bonded with me in a way I have never ever experienced before. He is a rescue dog. He was born in an outdoor cage under more cages, he lost his sight, and yet through all that abuse, when he was rescued at 7 years old weighing only 18 pounds, all he wanted to do was love. And 2 years later he is still the same way. He loves every person, every child every animal everything that he meets.
This is Willy - https://www.dropbox.com/s/7hqmywfp4....._4185.JPG?dl=0
So stay strong dear friend. A dogs love is so so very strong when you find the right one. He loved you as you loved him. Always remember that. I will always be here if you need to talk. I understand closely to how you are feeling right now. Circumstances may differ slightly but I have been there and I know what it is like. But you will be able to get through this. There is no "getting over" "moving on" or "forgetting" these thing. You just find ways to work with and around the pain that will pop up every so often or frequently. Cherish with all your heart the wonderful memories you had with your baby and I hope someday you will create new memories to go with it if someday you decide to adopt or take in another furbaby <3
The pain is Incredible. .....you are So Very right that when a Beagle "Bond's" they bond forever and give every bit of love they possibly can.
His love was like no other I have ever seen.....he was always there to comfort me, to make my day no matter how bad it may have been....Better with just his very presents. He Never knew anyone who did not love him....he showed me an Unconditional Love that I have Never known before outside of the love my Beautiful wife shows me.
His love was so pure and free......there is a hole in my heart now where he soon will reside. .....but the pain right now is so very great.
Your words have comforted me in a way that no others have.....I know of your pain....your strength and your suffering. ....You my dearest friend, know better than Any other the pain I feel. .....for this I am so Very sorry, for I would not wish such pain upon my worst enemy. ...let alone someone as Incredible as yourself. You are Amazing my friend. ....your words of heart felt kindness have both reassured and given me hope.
I will Never stop loving him.....His love is Forever in my heart......and in time, I will adopt again. ...if he has taught me nothing else, then He has taught to Love Unconditionally and that Love is something that Must be Shared Freely and not Restrained or caged. He was an Incredible little teacher. .....and I miss him so Very Much.
I cried when I looked at Willy.......he looks almost identical to our Beloved Oscar... I almost thought it was him......
The Love and Support I have found here on FA, and all the heart felt words from all my Beautiful friends......have Really Helped push me forward in this long and painful trip.....I Honestly don't know what I would do without Great friends like You. *Hugs Tightly*
Your words are very comforting. ....and I thank you so much for being there...... Thank You.
Willy is one heck of a character. 100% blind, and yet he uses the incredible nose and hearing of both species to meander and waddle his way around. He is such a happy boy.
I know it is early right now, but if you have any pictures of your baby, I hope someday you will post a couple. I'd love to see what a beautiful boy he was, and always will be. *hugs you tightly* I am so incredibly thankful for the friends I have made here on FA. The community, the good part of the community is unlike any I've ever seen. <3
I will always be there, and thank you as well, for being there for me too.
It's funny....after responding to your post I started thinking the healing process had moved on to a point that I could remember some more of the great time's him and I had shared......but the moment I did I began breaking down again......I just miss him so much....
I will post a couple pictures of him as soon as I can muster the courage to do so.....right now I'm afraid I will not be able to control the tears again if I do.......
Willy sounds like an Incredible little boy......it's so sad that he is blind, but what a Loving home he has found with you and your husband......He is So very lucky.....and Loved I'm Certain! ♡
Indeed, the FA community is truly like no other......this is why I call it home.
Thank you my dear friend, as I will always be here for you too.... It's truly people like you that make life....Livable! ♡
He was the Most Love creature I have Ever had the pleasure of sharing my life with....He was indeed our son.....albeit a furry son, still He Truly was our child and fully respected as so.
He will forever live on in our heart's.....
Thank you Bering, for such kind word's. ...I hope to have a picture of him posted as soon as I can hold it together long enough to do so....
In some ways, the love we feel for someone or something is equal to the pain we feel when they go. From everything that's been said here, I know you two had a fantastic time of things and I'm glad it happened even if the ending wasn't what we could hope for. Rest in peace Oscar.
Yes, He was one of a kind! Like myself, if you made friends with him then you were friends forever....He never forgot a friend.
A lot of my inspiration came from him and his shananagains....
He knew and offered unconventional Love to All who had the pleasure of knowing him. He was such a kind and gentle soul.....He got me through some of the Hardest time's in my life, and was Always there to cheer me up when I wasn't having a good day.....He Is my Son.....my wife and I could not have children so he is for All intentional purposes Our Son.
Loosing him has been a Devastating loss......
In time, we will heal for like everything else....both good and bad, this too shall pass.
But He will Never be forgotten!! He is at ease now....his suffering is over....and in time ours will be too. ♥
Thank you Lucky......You're a True Friend. :)