Welp it been a while fellow FA friends. long time no see. been going through a hellish rollercoaster the past few months it feels like but then again I guess things could be a lot worse. Well I've gone through like 3 jobs, fell behind on my student loan payments had to forbear those for a while. Basically went broke and had to leave California and come back to Georgia, luckily my beautiful girlfriend who has never left California decided she was willing to move all the way here to Georgia with me and my family just to stay with me (yea awesome right :D). I feel like I've lost all my friends and companionship due to being focused on my working and my girlfriend and I's relationship. seems the only person I really talk to anymore is my brother who also lives here with our parents and then I pretty much only get invited to stuff because I'm with him and people don't want to seem rude and not include me (but hey maybe that's just me being a paranoid fuck as usual). well hell its at the point I don't even know if I have any FA friends left due to my inactivity lately. Strange how this used to be one of my safe places I could come to and almost always feel loved or needed now even here and in my own house with my family and my girlfriend I believe I have never felt so alone. Lately it seems like when I think about my future all I can see is sadness and pain and that scares the shit out of me. Maybe this is just part of the adult life and my immaturity has left me unprepared for these hardships but maybe I am overthinking things and just kinda freaking out. In other news: I am 21 now, that's fun. Been playing this new game called Albion Online that my buddy showed me and I love it. cant really think of anything else to add to this so I'm just post it up now. feel free to comment and pm me guys. May you all have a great day!