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Nightmares. And apologies for delays
9 years ago
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Urghh.
Last night I could barely sleep because of anxieties, and that led to an all night long roll of nightmares.
I don't think I have ever mentioned that I have rather bad anxiety. I worry a lot, feel deeply even though I try not to. I keep my head in the positive but last night just threw me off my feet.
I hate to whine, but really I have been keeping this inside for a while and I think I ought to just say it if only to ease the pressure in my chest.
I'm worried about this whole Uni thing. I did get the interview last Wednesday, but then they said that I did not fit the profile for the program because it conflicts with my previous degree. They mentioned they'd look for an alternative, but yesterday I saw that some people have ALREADY received their acceptance letters.
I feel like I should just be more patient, but really...knowing that others have already received their letters....I can't help feeling downcast. I have been anxious about it since Weds and all sorts of bad things went in my head about it. It's hard to keep positive thoughts, especially when my anxiety is clamping at my chest.
THAT annnnnd.....I feel really bad for being slow with commissions.
I hadn't realized how rusty I was with full body portraits until I started doing them again. While Im okay with the way I draw it, I'm frustrated at how long I take to finish them.
I feel terribly guilty for taking that long for some of my commissioners. I cant really bring myself to do personal art because of it. Hence why I also have been inactive lately...guilt and a butt-ton of anxiety.
So, I'm really sorry for the delays guys ;_;
I want to do personal work but I just can't help worrying/feeling like a overcooked potato about it.
Ack.
God God, make the sun bloody shine already.
[End rant]
Last night I could barely sleep because of anxieties, and that led to an all night long roll of nightmares.
I don't think I have ever mentioned that I have rather bad anxiety. I worry a lot, feel deeply even though I try not to. I keep my head in the positive but last night just threw me off my feet.
I hate to whine, but really I have been keeping this inside for a while and I think I ought to just say it if only to ease the pressure in my chest.
I'm worried about this whole Uni thing. I did get the interview last Wednesday, but then they said that I did not fit the profile for the program because it conflicts with my previous degree. They mentioned they'd look for an alternative, but yesterday I saw that some people have ALREADY received their acceptance letters.
I feel like I should just be more patient, but really...knowing that others have already received their letters....I can't help feeling downcast. I have been anxious about it since Weds and all sorts of bad things went in my head about it. It's hard to keep positive thoughts, especially when my anxiety is clamping at my chest.
THAT annnnnd.....I feel really bad for being slow with commissions.
I hadn't realized how rusty I was with full body portraits until I started doing them again. While Im okay with the way I draw it, I'm frustrated at how long I take to finish them.
I feel terribly guilty for taking that long for some of my commissioners. I cant really bring myself to do personal art because of it. Hence why I also have been inactive lately...guilt and a butt-ton of anxiety.
So, I'm really sorry for the delays guys ;_;
I want to do personal work but I just can't help worrying/feeling like a overcooked potato about it.
Ack.
God God, make the sun bloody shine already.
[End rant]
I struggle with deep anxiety as well.
When you said: I'm worried about how fast i am going.
I actually have the anxiety of someone saying something bad or that my feelings would be hurt
like if i didn't draw it right and if i didn't do something original or that it looks flay, lacking or stiff
So most of the time i just sulka nd don't draw so i get lost in video games mostly.
I pray about it, and the Lord helps me draw more now.
I just wanted you to know you aren't alone ;n;
Hope you're doing okay yourself <3
I feel like i talk to much of myself XD
I really do hope you feel better. It's hard because sometimes it's like the words that go through your head because of anxiety
just sleep or sit on top of your chest, and you can't breathe :c
But we just gotta keep telling ourselves that it's just anxiety-induced thoughts, that in reality it isn't as horrific as anxiety makes it look. Doesn't make the stress go away immediately, but it helps at least
Lord Willing, i hope to remember this!
Thanks for the advice ;w;
I hope I get it too. Thanks so much though, Lane <3
Thanks so much guys <3 <3 <3
Don't let the commissions add to your stress. We bought them because we support you. Try to harness that anxiety and use it to affect positive change instead of letting it fester.
Yes....I will need to try and redirect this to a more positive direction. Maybe I should play a few games or something. I do need a break from it all.
Very fun to escape into a different reality for a while, and the game's creativity might even spark yours, who knows? And I'd be happy to be your Steam buddy
-Mylo
Thanks so much, Mylo....! It makes me smile reading your cheery words! You are right....I'm glad I posted up a journal to explain whats going on instead of trying to slog on all by myself and putting on the view that all is well.
I'm thankful for all my friends here. It helps beat all the negativity away <3
Keep being awesome Reika
I really, really am thankful for all my friends and peeps here, those who support and care. Might wanna give art a break for a bit, and maybe game some. I've just got Skyrim on PC and I'm modding the heck out of it x'D
I have been adding jewelry, hairdos, tails, grass and all sorts like there's no tomorrow
Thank you <3
As for commissions - I think the communication's the most important here. I know your customers will understand. Please don't worry about it <3 This community is really warm, open and very supportive We all will be there for you, Reika <3
I've been doing the breathing exercises and it does help! It stops me from spiralling into more negative thoughts.
Thanks so much, Ana Reading comments and advice like yours, I really feel blessed <3
just try to stay calm, stress rarely helps ^.^