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Feeling Low
9 years ago
*Listening to All Time Low By John Bellion*
A Lot of you may relate to this.
I feel low whenever I visit my own account... I think it's my personality that throws people off. I feel like people just don't want to affiliate themselves with me.
My self-esteem is already damaged and just barely hanging there. My depression is already deep to the point that I can't get over things as easily as I used to anymore.
This is why I feel like I just need to shut up whenever I use this account. That's why I'm changing it when I get my laptop. But I know that even if my art was better... Even if I acted more like myself or just shut up... that none of you will appreciate me or the things I do. I already have this much drama with my own family and I don't need more from the Internet.
So if you're just gonna ask me to make something and flick it off like it was nothing then don't even bother asking me for shit. It hurts the artist's feelings if you don't appreciate what they make for you. I could understand if you payed for it but if it's for free then you'd better do your best to appreciate it or don't bother watching or even contact me ever again. I try my best to please you but it's still worth shit in your eyes.
That's why I'm gonna start blacklisting people. People who I tried my best to make friends or joke around with and just comment a monotoned "lol" and nothing else, then goodbye. When I make a new account I will start fresh and ignore those people who did that. And when I finally become good at what I do and people finally recognize me for what I do and you try to affiliate yourself with me... WELL TOO BAD! YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE!
Coz even if I mention you in my profile and a lot of my work, you still treated me like some kid craving for attention and didn't appreciate the fact that I TRIED! to make friends with you. I TRIED! to get to know you. And you just shut me out. I kept trying to initiate a conversation with you but you didn't even bother to return the conversation and just gave me a "lol"!?!?
Social Network my ass!!!
Look, I'm so sorry if I can't talk Spanish, Portuguese, Russian, Chinese and every other language out there! Coz all I know is English, Tagalog, Kinaray-a, Hiligaynun and Ghasen. And the last one is almost to the point of extinction!
So when I do make that account, don't even try to talk to me coz I'll just ignore you and make you feel how I felt when you did the same to me. I don't often take grudges but you've been doing that shit for far too long. It's time for me to start fresh and new and forget Iever tried to talk to you. It was a waist of my time.
You ask me something and I gave it to you without a hint of hesitation, but for what? You need to understand that if it doesn't take from your pockets that you should give it your time and appreciation. Nothing is ever truly free. Because if it were, then the world would be monotonous. Nothing is worse than breaking an artist's pride. And someone's heart.
And for those who tried to be friends with me, you will forever be precious to me. That's why I'm gonna include you in the comic I'm making in that account.
Sorry if this sounded like some kid with a tantrum but I've been hurting for far too long and just brushed it aside and gave the brightest smile I could. Even when it was raining.
I may sound like a happy kid always making jokes but IRL... I'm depressed to the point where I just want to kill myself already. But don't worry though. I won't go that far. I still have my hopes and dreams. Even if their hanging by a thread, I still have them bright and shining.
Don't worry. You know who you are if I still love you or not.
you're still my Bae master Yuri XD
Now let's get back to our regularly scheduled program of laggy phone VS grounded finger :D
A Lot of you may relate to this.
I feel low whenever I visit my own account... I think it's my personality that throws people off. I feel like people just don't want to affiliate themselves with me.
My self-esteem is already damaged and just barely hanging there. My depression is already deep to the point that I can't get over things as easily as I used to anymore.
This is why I feel like I just need to shut up whenever I use this account. That's why I'm changing it when I get my laptop. But I know that even if my art was better... Even if I acted more like myself or just shut up... that none of you will appreciate me or the things I do. I already have this much drama with my own family and I don't need more from the Internet.
So if you're just gonna ask me to make something and flick it off like it was nothing then don't even bother asking me for shit. It hurts the artist's feelings if you don't appreciate what they make for you. I could understand if you payed for it but if it's for free then you'd better do your best to appreciate it or don't bother watching or even contact me ever again. I try my best to please you but it's still worth shit in your eyes.
That's why I'm gonna start blacklisting people. People who I tried my best to make friends or joke around with and just comment a monotoned "lol" and nothing else, then goodbye. When I make a new account I will start fresh and ignore those people who did that. And when I finally become good at what I do and people finally recognize me for what I do and you try to affiliate yourself with me... WELL TOO BAD! YOU HAD YOUR CHANCE!
Coz even if I mention you in my profile and a lot of my work, you still treated me like some kid craving for attention and didn't appreciate the fact that I TRIED! to make friends with you. I TRIED! to get to know you. And you just shut me out. I kept trying to initiate a conversation with you but you didn't even bother to return the conversation and just gave me a "lol"!?!?
Social Network my ass!!!
Look, I'm so sorry if I can't talk Spanish, Portuguese, Russian, Chinese and every other language out there! Coz all I know is English, Tagalog, Kinaray-a, Hiligaynun and Ghasen. And the last one is almost to the point of extinction!
So when I do make that account, don't even try to talk to me coz I'll just ignore you and make you feel how I felt when you did the same to me. I don't often take grudges but you've been doing that shit for far too long. It's time for me to start fresh and new and forget Iever tried to talk to you. It was a waist of my time.
You ask me something and I gave it to you without a hint of hesitation, but for what? You need to understand that if it doesn't take from your pockets that you should give it your time and appreciation. Nothing is ever truly free. Because if it were, then the world would be monotonous. Nothing is worse than breaking an artist's pride. And someone's heart.
And for those who tried to be friends with me, you will forever be precious to me. That's why I'm gonna include you in the comic I'm making in that account.
Sorry if this sounded like some kid with a tantrum but I've been hurting for far too long and just brushed it aside and gave the brightest smile I could. Even when it was raining.
I may sound like a happy kid always making jokes but IRL... I'm depressed to the point where I just want to kill myself already. But don't worry though. I won't go that far. I still have my hopes and dreams. Even if their hanging by a thread, I still have them bright and shining.
Don't worry. You know who you are if I still love you or not.
you're still my Bae master Yuri XD
Now let's get back to our regularly scheduled program of laggy phone VS grounded finger :D
But I do have Skype and Telegram :D