Last week a lot of frustrating family issues happened, I was basically used as scapegoat for all their issues and they cut the internet as usual. I was absolutely done with their crap at that point and figured to not bother with it as a exam was coming up. I figured no internet means no distractions and used my time studying in one of the University's library's, I actually ended up being really productive and was done summarizing all the material early so I could study from my summary through the weekend. I ended up doing really well at the exam, results are still to come but for the first time in a very long time I actually felt that I did really good at the exam, I had no doubts walking out when I finished it, that felt really good.
I still had a presentation on Friday after the exam so I was still far from done and Thursday I actually worked the entire day on it until 2:00 AM, didn't manage to practice it so I ended up being really anxious and had trouble talking properly as usual but otherwise they always say that the content was really good, so same result this time. They usually don't give bad scores on presentations, as long as there is content it's good but every lecturer is different.
I do think that I made it which makes me happy. However that's the only class I finished of this entire minor which is still devastating for me to see how I failed everything up to so far. It was also less material before the exam.
I guess I should look at it more positively and see that I found a study method that works for me. All I really need for studying is silence and no distractions. Speaking of distractions I suppose I also have a sort off media addiction. I do tend to check all these websites like Youtube, Tumblr and Twitter on a daily basis which I definitely should do a lot less frequently. I think chatting and gaming with friends is a better thing to spend my free time on.

I came to the realization that neither my family or the people from the study are happy with me and I have to choose what's more important for me and that's the study. I'm simply going to avoid all the crap of my family for now, it's the main source of distraction I realize. I should've been living on my own but I'm still too insecure about that so I figure studying at the library away from house is the next best thing for me. Turns out it works, it finally felt like I was doing it for myself and not to make others happy which was a relief really. I'm done being judged for everything I do, so I feel at least.



As for art, didn't really got to it because this last 2 weeks I had to study a lot. I did do some practice sketches last week, I'll probably do some more this weekend but afterwards I'll have to see as next week a large project class starts.
I hope you're ok with there being no muscle art for a while, it's why I'm practicing figure drawing, I'm simply not happy with how I draw these figures. I need to get better first.