I would like to apologize to everyone.....

I have tried to heal these last few years but i cant.....the sheer magnitude of the pain a few have caused me in the past has forever scarred me...

I am afraid to be social...i used to chat all the time...had a group of friends that were always there....but then most of them turned on me...hurt me and abandoned me...

This caused me to shut myself off to everyone.....the few i started growing close to after that..like a certain person i hung out with at ac a few years ago....also ended up hurting me..

I am now afraid to get to know others...afraid of getting hurt more....i have tried reaching out to a few old friends but i get ignored....i dont blame them for hating me after i went quiet for so long i suppose...

It would be nice for others to checm up on me...text me without me having to text first....no one does, i am unimportant and someone easily forgotten and shoved aside...

Thats why i dont get on skype...why i dont use telegram..and why i dont chat mych anymore....there is something about me that drives people away..and i dont want to feel that deep pain anymore every time it happens..

So again sorry...im a failure as a friend and will forever be broken never to heal...every time i try to open up again i get slapped in the face...

Sorry...