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The Award and setting up things for my next few years.
9 years ago
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An Old Fox's life
It's been a while since I posted in my journal. I have had a few months if crazy things going on.
First was the fact that my special meds suddenly dried up. I had my last injection back in Mid August and that did not bode well. I have been on Estrogen since 1999.
Over the years like many women you store it up in your body in your skin and other places and I was not that concerned at first. I tried my local provider and after a month of not being able to get it I tried another and then another. After three months I began to feel the loss of something essential to my being. I was slipping into menopause. I became moody angry and well pretty much nasty. It was easy to get me angry and set me off. (Influx of good old male hormones tends to do that) It finally accumulated with my breaking down and making a nice drama fest and loosing friends over something rather silly but at the time my mind said otherwise. I sat more than a day pondering what the fuck I had done and then went to see my doctor. She was a bit upset and rightfully so. She dug around and came up with a half of a bottle of the stuff I needed. And she gave it to me and did her own search and found someone that had the Estrogen.
I went home and took my shot and two days later I drove 60 miles to get another full bottle of the Medicine that all Transgenders need. I have never taken the pills and for good reason due to the stress it puts on your liver. The Inject able version is direct and does not strain your liver. it also produces the most dramatic results in changes. Here I am three weeks later and I am pretty much back to normal. I doubt I can heal the damage done with my friends. Life is full of you do lots of good and one bad time ruins it all for you. I am glad it was not something stupid like crashing my car or worse...
I also received my Social Security Disability award in October. It was a long hard fight and I am certain my Lawyer did little if nothing to get his part. I did all the foot work and gathering the information and sending it in, I am also certain that my lawyer purposely dragged things on for the Meeting with the Judge. I did however get a good amount awarded. and the lawyer got 6k of it. Then I had to pay my Long term disability people back a large chunk of it also. And Frankly the people there are blithering idiots. First the told me ???? amount that was most or my award. then they said ??? which was worse. Then it was half of that and finally they got their act together and I was to send on an amount like 1/4 of what they asked. It was finally done. Or was it...
I did everything they asked and jumped the hoops and ran around providing information for them. I was assured that if I sent them the money that my Long term disability would be restarted in December. I did what I was told and the very next day I sent off my check for the amount and was happy that that part of my Issue was handled. November passed . I had sent in the money in October. December arrived and I get a notice that I was paid Zero from Long Term disability. I called and asked WTF did they do with my check and why did they sit on it for three weeks? "Well Financial fucked up. I am sorry but you will not get any money till after the first of the year. After all you got that big award you should not worry.." What the Hell! What a fucking attitude to have. I had to pay everyone back for what I had to beg borrow and more to get by for many months that "They" had no clue about and i let him have it. "Oh I have all this money? Are you the one that paid all the money back and such?" Well in a nutshell I was over 500 dollars short this month and it was a good thing I had some moeny left over or I would have been in trouble. Still that attitude was so wrong.
Well I used my money that I had left over to pay for my bills and to fix up my car, It needed Struts desperately. The whole job cost 1k in the end and it was lucky that O Riley's had a special on them for Shocktober and I got one free. After that the car drove really nice. I did things like upgrade my video cards in my computers. Purchase a nice new smart phone. (Its still outsmarting me) Lots of small things I needed.
I found out my SL husband's computer was dying. Red and I have been together for several years now and hes Disabled and living in Germany. We are always together in Second Life and our marriage was presided over by a real Preacher not one that said they were I have a signed marriage document. Red needed a new Motherboard and after a long talk he was using mixed memory and his power-supply was small for what he needed. I had Shipped him things before like a bunch of Texas brand Hot Sauce. But shipping a mother board proved more costly than just sending him money to get one from an on like company that sold in Germany. Strange but NewEgg does not ship to Germany but does to England and Holland. Red ordered his new Motherboard. I decided to upgrade the memory in my computer from 1600 to 2400 and it was on sale so I bought a full set of 32 gig and put the previous memory in the package it came in two years ago and wrapped it up and shipped it to Germany.
Like everything I had shipped i had expected Red to receive the memory in a week. Instead Customs grabbed the package. It took almost three weeks for Red to get his Memory and he had to get there on his own to pick it up and hes Wheelchair bound. I was disappointed but they told red they pick things at random and I guess it was that time. I guess things work out for some reason. Red's father gave him money to get a new case and the rest for the Power supply. And Well DHL in Europe managed to destroy the package and I have the same case and that box is tough I still use it for a foot rest. (I bet they ran it over) So they had to reship things and I hope by now that Red can start assembling his new computer. (Merry Christmas Red)
About two months ago I noticed a nice looking Chevy Avalanche sitting in town for sale. After a couple of weeks I asked about it by calling on the number and perhaps a week or so later I met with the person and took it for a drive. It was nice and drove well and seemed well cared for. it did however have uber miles on it 320k to be exact. And Looking at the value on line it was about a 3500 dollar truck. he wanted 6k which was way to much, I offered 4 and well he balked and my top was 4500 if he replaced the cracked windshield. I poked him a few times but he would not budge so at the end of the month the rental on his shop ran out and him and the truck vanished at Thanksgiving.
I still loved the look and I wanted one so I began delving into the Craig's list and found lots of them. Most were a long ways away. I went to look at one in Austin and the person never showed and the bed cover pieces were missing. It had 235k miles but I passed. Another showed up in West Houston not far from the highway so I arranged a trip with a friend to go look at it. When we got there we saw the good side. the drivers side had been hit and things fixed sort of. It was missing one of the plastic pieces and worse the hood I could feel the cheap repaint and well the light bulb was laying inside the cover. I decided to start it and the check engine light was on and well that was the Your not even bothering with it sign. On the way back my friend had his phone and was looking and said 'Hey this dealership has one its a 2003 and it has 114k miles! Its Nine miles down the road." So away we went heading home and I figured it was a bust.
So a few miles later I pull off and into the used car lot of a Toyota dealer and there sat what looked like a new Avalanche. It was even the color I had wished for. It looked brand new and had to have been kept in a garage because the plastic pieces were not chalked or faded. It had 116k which was the lowest amount of miles I had seen so far. When the sales guy started it it was so quiet I didn't realize it was running. After a test drive I was sold it was solid had the balls to get going and handled nice. Then I negotiated for hours and jumped through hoops and more before I drove it back 6 hours later.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....psxdirhj9r.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....pssrv5k60j.jpg
http://smg.photobucket.com/user/ImG.....4weds.jpg.html
I purchased the truck for several reasons and one is bringing up my credit raiting. It heeds to be higher to help me get a nice low rate loan on my home I hope to buy next year. Its important to me because I have a lot of money invested in the place and even though I have a contract that says I can stay forever that will not hold if my friend dies. I have seen what families do when people die. They could flat out sell the place out from under me. I have had that done once already. The price is already agreed upon and after paying on the truck it will be good for me to get a nice loan for the home. That will remove the issues of loosing my place if the relatives become assholes if my friend dies.
First was the fact that my special meds suddenly dried up. I had my last injection back in Mid August and that did not bode well. I have been on Estrogen since 1999.
Over the years like many women you store it up in your body in your skin and other places and I was not that concerned at first. I tried my local provider and after a month of not being able to get it I tried another and then another. After three months I began to feel the loss of something essential to my being. I was slipping into menopause. I became moody angry and well pretty much nasty. It was easy to get me angry and set me off. (Influx of good old male hormones tends to do that) It finally accumulated with my breaking down and making a nice drama fest and loosing friends over something rather silly but at the time my mind said otherwise. I sat more than a day pondering what the fuck I had done and then went to see my doctor. She was a bit upset and rightfully so. She dug around and came up with a half of a bottle of the stuff I needed. And she gave it to me and did her own search and found someone that had the Estrogen.
I went home and took my shot and two days later I drove 60 miles to get another full bottle of the Medicine that all Transgenders need. I have never taken the pills and for good reason due to the stress it puts on your liver. The Inject able version is direct and does not strain your liver. it also produces the most dramatic results in changes. Here I am three weeks later and I am pretty much back to normal. I doubt I can heal the damage done with my friends. Life is full of you do lots of good and one bad time ruins it all for you. I am glad it was not something stupid like crashing my car or worse...
I also received my Social Security Disability award in October. It was a long hard fight and I am certain my Lawyer did little if nothing to get his part. I did all the foot work and gathering the information and sending it in, I am also certain that my lawyer purposely dragged things on for the Meeting with the Judge. I did however get a good amount awarded. and the lawyer got 6k of it. Then I had to pay my Long term disability people back a large chunk of it also. And Frankly the people there are blithering idiots. First the told me ???? amount that was most or my award. then they said ??? which was worse. Then it was half of that and finally they got their act together and I was to send on an amount like 1/4 of what they asked. It was finally done. Or was it...
I did everything they asked and jumped the hoops and ran around providing information for them. I was assured that if I sent them the money that my Long term disability would be restarted in December. I did what I was told and the very next day I sent off my check for the amount and was happy that that part of my Issue was handled. November passed . I had sent in the money in October. December arrived and I get a notice that I was paid Zero from Long Term disability. I called and asked WTF did they do with my check and why did they sit on it for three weeks? "Well Financial fucked up. I am sorry but you will not get any money till after the first of the year. After all you got that big award you should not worry.." What the Hell! What a fucking attitude to have. I had to pay everyone back for what I had to beg borrow and more to get by for many months that "They" had no clue about and i let him have it. "Oh I have all this money? Are you the one that paid all the money back and such?" Well in a nutshell I was over 500 dollars short this month and it was a good thing I had some moeny left over or I would have been in trouble. Still that attitude was so wrong.
Well I used my money that I had left over to pay for my bills and to fix up my car, It needed Struts desperately. The whole job cost 1k in the end and it was lucky that O Riley's had a special on them for Shocktober and I got one free. After that the car drove really nice. I did things like upgrade my video cards in my computers. Purchase a nice new smart phone. (Its still outsmarting me) Lots of small things I needed.
I found out my SL husband's computer was dying. Red and I have been together for several years now and hes Disabled and living in Germany. We are always together in Second Life and our marriage was presided over by a real Preacher not one that said they were I have a signed marriage document. Red needed a new Motherboard and after a long talk he was using mixed memory and his power-supply was small for what he needed. I had Shipped him things before like a bunch of Texas brand Hot Sauce. But shipping a mother board proved more costly than just sending him money to get one from an on like company that sold in Germany. Strange but NewEgg does not ship to Germany but does to England and Holland. Red ordered his new Motherboard. I decided to upgrade the memory in my computer from 1600 to 2400 and it was on sale so I bought a full set of 32 gig and put the previous memory in the package it came in two years ago and wrapped it up and shipped it to Germany.
Like everything I had shipped i had expected Red to receive the memory in a week. Instead Customs grabbed the package. It took almost three weeks for Red to get his Memory and he had to get there on his own to pick it up and hes Wheelchair bound. I was disappointed but they told red they pick things at random and I guess it was that time. I guess things work out for some reason. Red's father gave him money to get a new case and the rest for the Power supply. And Well DHL in Europe managed to destroy the package and I have the same case and that box is tough I still use it for a foot rest. (I bet they ran it over) So they had to reship things and I hope by now that Red can start assembling his new computer. (Merry Christmas Red)
About two months ago I noticed a nice looking Chevy Avalanche sitting in town for sale. After a couple of weeks I asked about it by calling on the number and perhaps a week or so later I met with the person and took it for a drive. It was nice and drove well and seemed well cared for. it did however have uber miles on it 320k to be exact. And Looking at the value on line it was about a 3500 dollar truck. he wanted 6k which was way to much, I offered 4 and well he balked and my top was 4500 if he replaced the cracked windshield. I poked him a few times but he would not budge so at the end of the month the rental on his shop ran out and him and the truck vanished at Thanksgiving.
I still loved the look and I wanted one so I began delving into the Craig's list and found lots of them. Most were a long ways away. I went to look at one in Austin and the person never showed and the bed cover pieces were missing. It had 235k miles but I passed. Another showed up in West Houston not far from the highway so I arranged a trip with a friend to go look at it. When we got there we saw the good side. the drivers side had been hit and things fixed sort of. It was missing one of the plastic pieces and worse the hood I could feel the cheap repaint and well the light bulb was laying inside the cover. I decided to start it and the check engine light was on and well that was the Your not even bothering with it sign. On the way back my friend had his phone and was looking and said 'Hey this dealership has one its a 2003 and it has 114k miles! Its Nine miles down the road." So away we went heading home and I figured it was a bust.
So a few miles later I pull off and into the used car lot of a Toyota dealer and there sat what looked like a new Avalanche. It was even the color I had wished for. It looked brand new and had to have been kept in a garage because the plastic pieces were not chalked or faded. It had 116k which was the lowest amount of miles I had seen so far. When the sales guy started it it was so quiet I didn't realize it was running. After a test drive I was sold it was solid had the balls to get going and handled nice. Then I negotiated for hours and jumped through hoops and more before I drove it back 6 hours later.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....psxdirhj9r.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v.....pssrv5k60j.jpg
http://smg.photobucket.com/user/ImG.....4weds.jpg.html
I purchased the truck for several reasons and one is bringing up my credit raiting. It heeds to be higher to help me get a nice low rate loan on my home I hope to buy next year. Its important to me because I have a lot of money invested in the place and even though I have a contract that says I can stay forever that will not hold if my friend dies. I have seen what families do when people die. They could flat out sell the place out from under me. I have had that done once already. The price is already agreed upon and after paying on the truck it will be good for me to get a nice loan for the home. That will remove the issues of loosing my place if the relatives become assholes if my friend dies.
Also, Merry Christmas!
With the new used truck I have better mobility to go places and pack camping gear and other
items.