Well I was all set to do a journal complaining about how furs help out other furs out with stupid things like computer parts and stuff but whenever one is truly in need they turn their back. Then this morning happened. Me and wild found our most dear friend dead. It's hard enough losing a close friend but when that person is someone me and while considered family and for me was not just family but a confidante and also active transgender Ally for me. It's hard, but when you see her brought out in a body bag it makes it even more surreal. I did not think it was possible for me to cry as much as I have cried today and I'm still not done crying it is very raw and emotional for me and brought an emotional for wild the only thing we can do is try to be there for each other but it's not easy. so remember to be there for each other always don't leave things unsaid if I don't go but if you care about someone make sure that they know that everyday when possible because you never know when that day might come sooner than you think and you no longer have them. I will go now I will probably will not respond to any comments on this post for a few days it is still really wrong with me right now I hope you understand thank you