So after some time
9 years ago
General
I really need to get back into doing collabs jesus H christ. I figured what my depression was stemming from.
Being lied to is a big factor, yeah. But I know the main cause.
Not working.
I hate just sitting around doing nothing.
And I haven't been able to actually work properly in over a month.
I hate it. I can't get rid of the feeling by just cleaning.
No, I NEED there to be a level of difficulty.
Such as having to use every bit of my strength to life up a 120kg tire barrier. (Somewhere around 250-260 pounds)
Stuff that makes ME feel alive. Exhilarating things really get me rearing to do things.
Without anything like that I feel empty and thoughts I don't like nor want to think about seep into my mind.
Because I'm not distracting myself doing something I enjoy.
FA+




And I hate heights.
And I don't have the right license.