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I've lost a good friend, AnimeLoverChaos has passed away.
9 years ago
I've been on FA for almost a decade and I have spent a great deal of time with many friends I have come to know through my escapades as a macrofurry artist. Friends who come and go, friends that just pop by with an idea or two, or the friend that pokes me for an update on the fresh pictures I have drawn: He was neither one of those. Spencer was a partner.
His FA page:
animeloverchaos
We started talking to each other in early 2011 when he was a small-time writer who would on occasion request a few pics from various artists. We had alot in common in terms of interest, characters, and scenarios. I helped him redesign his skunk god, Evyn, as well as aided in helping him write the story featuring him. Not to mention his input on my experimental writing piece "Alex" and a few other writings that I haven't (yet) shared. It was fun writing with him and exchanging ideas.
Evyn: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6165412/
We ended up collaborating on the story "The Harvest, Part 1", one of our proudest pieces of writing. We also created all the characters featured in such story, he pretty much created Donnlie and Baesil while I took the task of designing the milf Lieutenant Wynzlie. He also wrote all the male sections of the story while I wrote all the Wynzlie sections including some of the POV chapters and aided with him in connecting each section to help make the story flow. It was a grand project and we both left satisfied.
The Harvest, Part 1: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7346301/
For years, he has always been after me to draw his fursona. I usually don't like to draw people's fursonas and other people's OCs for several reasons, mostly because it's usually a "one-shot character" and I spend so much time building/reviewing/testing/practicing said character for only a handful of pics. However, for my good long time friends, I make an exception. For his birthday I made him a portrait of his character in the first instance of my "painterly style" that I have been using for my more intricate pictures as of late. He was grateful and I would never forget that day I gave him that piece.
The Wolf God: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/8294423/
Animatic version (SOUND CAUTION): https://www.furaffinity.net/view/8294386/
I even made the first "Stomp Icon" for him as well.
https://a.facdn.net/1424255659/animeloverchaos.gif
Sad news came when he told me he was not gonna be around for a while and had to leave the macro community for his job. We were in the planning stages for "The Harvest, Part 2," I have already written the first 2 chapters awaiting his input, though his work schedule halted any progress on his end. So we had to put the story on hold indefinitely. We never spoke for a long while.
He later returned when work winded down, though our relationship never rekindled back to the way it was. We were both deeply involved in other personal projects when we started talking again. There was no argument, beef, or grudge between us. We simply moved on.
Once in a while we would chat and catch up, always fun to see who was up to what and what was cooking from either one of us. But alas, things never got back to 'The Harvest days.' Those times were long gone and we both knew it. It was sad, it was like seeing an old friend from across the room and we would nod to each other acknowledging the good times.
I spent a great amount of time the past decade with him, he help influence me in ways no one has. He was a good man to go to for ideas (especially for males). He was an influence on how I write stories, and we both taught each other a thing or two. He introduced me to fun people who I still chat with to this day, He helped me build and design characters that I still return to in my roster. He helped me build a "universe" for my "Lagwi" space bunnies that I continuously add upon.
I honestly don't know what to take from this, he was a big part of my life and "career" as a macro artist. Will I continue the "Harvest" story for him? Or should I leave it alone in respect. I can upload what I have written for part 2, but its unpolished and doesn't go anywhere as I needed his input on direction. I'm not sure. I may need to think it over and consider what is appropriate.
I may draw a lot of unusually cruel and horrific acts involving big macrofurs killing tiny people, viewers may easily see me as a person who doesn't care much for life or death and picture me as a bit of a sociopath. It's not true. My art is fiction as well as AnimeLoverChaos', no one gets hurt: it's only drawings and writings, designed to appeal to our quirky pleasures as well as the desires to those who enjoy our work. I see life as both a miracle and a gift that should never be cut short or wasted by any means. It's the point of using your life to positively affect others and progress to a better tomorrow by plowing through the worst of our yesterdays. Everyone should feel good, everyone should be good. Though everyone should be grateful of who and what they are and knowing that life is precious, not only to you, but to those around you. As long as you make a positive difference.
My condolences to Spencer's family, they lost someone dear, close, creative, and far too young. He will be missed.
See ya, Big Guy. I enjoyed our time together and I hope you did as well.
His FA page:
animeloverchaosWe started talking to each other in early 2011 when he was a small-time writer who would on occasion request a few pics from various artists. We had alot in common in terms of interest, characters, and scenarios. I helped him redesign his skunk god, Evyn, as well as aided in helping him write the story featuring him. Not to mention his input on my experimental writing piece "Alex" and a few other writings that I haven't (yet) shared. It was fun writing with him and exchanging ideas.
Evyn: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/6165412/
We ended up collaborating on the story "The Harvest, Part 1", one of our proudest pieces of writing. We also created all the characters featured in such story, he pretty much created Donnlie and Baesil while I took the task of designing the milf Lieutenant Wynzlie. He also wrote all the male sections of the story while I wrote all the Wynzlie sections including some of the POV chapters and aided with him in connecting each section to help make the story flow. It was a grand project and we both left satisfied.
The Harvest, Part 1: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7346301/
For years, he has always been after me to draw his fursona. I usually don't like to draw people's fursonas and other people's OCs for several reasons, mostly because it's usually a "one-shot character" and I spend so much time building/reviewing/testing/practicing said character for only a handful of pics. However, for my good long time friends, I make an exception. For his birthday I made him a portrait of his character in the first instance of my "painterly style" that I have been using for my more intricate pictures as of late. He was grateful and I would never forget that day I gave him that piece.
The Wolf God: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/8294423/
Animatic version (SOUND CAUTION): https://www.furaffinity.net/view/8294386/
I even made the first "Stomp Icon" for him as well.
https://a.facdn.net/1424255659/animeloverchaos.gif
Sad news came when he told me he was not gonna be around for a while and had to leave the macro community for his job. We were in the planning stages for "The Harvest, Part 2," I have already written the first 2 chapters awaiting his input, though his work schedule halted any progress on his end. So we had to put the story on hold indefinitely. We never spoke for a long while.
He later returned when work winded down, though our relationship never rekindled back to the way it was. We were both deeply involved in other personal projects when we started talking again. There was no argument, beef, or grudge between us. We simply moved on.
Once in a while we would chat and catch up, always fun to see who was up to what and what was cooking from either one of us. But alas, things never got back to 'The Harvest days.' Those times were long gone and we both knew it. It was sad, it was like seeing an old friend from across the room and we would nod to each other acknowledging the good times.
I spent a great amount of time the past decade with him, he help influence me in ways no one has. He was a good man to go to for ideas (especially for males). He was an influence on how I write stories, and we both taught each other a thing or two. He introduced me to fun people who I still chat with to this day, He helped me build and design characters that I still return to in my roster. He helped me build a "universe" for my "Lagwi" space bunnies that I continuously add upon.
I honestly don't know what to take from this, he was a big part of my life and "career" as a macro artist. Will I continue the "Harvest" story for him? Or should I leave it alone in respect. I can upload what I have written for part 2, but its unpolished and doesn't go anywhere as I needed his input on direction. I'm not sure. I may need to think it over and consider what is appropriate.
I may draw a lot of unusually cruel and horrific acts involving big macrofurs killing tiny people, viewers may easily see me as a person who doesn't care much for life or death and picture me as a bit of a sociopath. It's not true. My art is fiction as well as AnimeLoverChaos', no one gets hurt: it's only drawings and writings, designed to appeal to our quirky pleasures as well as the desires to those who enjoy our work. I see life as both a miracle and a gift that should never be cut short or wasted by any means. It's the point of using your life to positively affect others and progress to a better tomorrow by plowing through the worst of our yesterdays. Everyone should feel good, everyone should be good. Though everyone should be grateful of who and what they are and knowing that life is precious, not only to you, but to those around you. As long as you make a positive difference.
My condolences to Spencer's family, they lost someone dear, close, creative, and far too young. He will be missed.
See ya, Big Guy. I enjoyed our time together and I hope you did as well.
Instead, real life and cyber bullying had been heavy contributors in his untimely demise. He could have been on his road to recovery, but it would have been longer than most would want. He should confided in his true friends more than anything, he could have been helped. I know of this because, well... let's just say I've came across THIS:
http://starlight-dazzle.deviantart......Dead-624802792
Only for emotion to further boil...
http://starlight-dazzle.deviantart......Will-631066613
In fact, she had her emotions boil so GREATLY, that she had turned over some hope at one point:
http://starlight-dazzle.deviantart......live-636241607
Now, I'd to imagine what she would be feeling right about now. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, but sometimes, you seek acceptance in all the wrong places. Sometimes-
He should have confided in friends true to him. Sure, I may not have known him long, but in the short time that he did meet me, I felt that he had a great passion for what he loved. Honestly, I wished I could shared more with him.
If anything, he did left me a lasting impression in that ONE meeting I've had. He inspired me to make HER: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19217200/
I may not have said it outright, but he did...he did inspire me to express, go bolder, and make something like Luminescence. In fact, in his name, I should fine the time to bring him a necessary TRIBUTE. I don't know many of his friends, but hey, if he had an impact in your life - HOWEVER. SMALL...
Let him know...
He will be dearly missed.
Rest In Peace my dear friend, I hardly knew thee.
Fucking read before you shove your agenda.
It's so weird to have to accept that he's not here anymore, I would like to know what happened to him because this is all so sudden.
My sincere condolances to you and his family.
Here's his official obituary: http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/fi.....?pid=183369375
May he rest in peace.