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I can't sleep and I need to talk.
9 years ago
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Body full of fluff, head full of stuff.
First of all, I'm going to shamelessly promote my Twitter where I'm a lot more active: https://twitter.com/Fluff_Summoner
Secondly, I want to use this site more, but I've been finding it hard to. Sure, I log in, favourite stuff and whatnot, but that's about the extent of my time on this site. I thought about joining groups, to try to find my niche here. But... How do I put this... I'm not good with people. Never have, never will be. I have a really difficult time trying to be around other people. It's not even really something I can change, I'm not going into the details but... Yeah, it's just not going to change, it's impossible.
I've put into serious consideration making this account just commissioned art/gift art, but then there's a lack of content. I have friends who've made their entire accounts based on that idea and have a lot of success. Their characters are well known and people are drawn to them.
I guess what I'm trying to say is: I don't know what I'm doing here. Because my life's been so batshit insane this past year I've lost track of people I saw as good friends, like
freelapse and 
lealong . And my decision to leave Skype for Discord (You guys can add me there, I just won't put the info out for the world to see) didn't really help. Speaking of which, I'm going to be brutally honest with why I made that decision. It was because of my ex. I never had it in me to delete her. I'm a coward and I know that. I'd see her log in all the time and just treat me like I was never anything to her, so I packed my bags and left. I tend to run away from my problems, I guess. It's only recently that I've started getting over her.
I feel like I've hurt people here, so I've neglected FA for the same reason. I'm not smart.
What do I want this account to be? What do I want to be? Where is my niche? I don't know the answers to any of that. I'm going to ask what you guys want to see. I'm still without a job, so commissioned stuff isn't going to be regular and I've been feeling like drawing a lot less. I mean, let's be honest here. I spend a lot of time on my pictures and they never come out how I want them to, nor do they get attention. I don't have the drive to improve anymore for a lot of reasons.
Art of Snow is coming soon, I recently commissioned
combatraccoon and I hope to get it by Friday. I probably won't have time to get back to comments during the day, I'll most likely be out and about trying to get furniture going for my apartment.
Thanks for putting up with me, my insecurities and bullshit through 2016. I hope that 2017 will be a year where I can find my place here and be happy with it.
Secondly, I want to use this site more, but I've been finding it hard to. Sure, I log in, favourite stuff and whatnot, but that's about the extent of my time on this site. I thought about joining groups, to try to find my niche here. But... How do I put this... I'm not good with people. Never have, never will be. I have a really difficult time trying to be around other people. It's not even really something I can change, I'm not going into the details but... Yeah, it's just not going to change, it's impossible.
I've put into serious consideration making this account just commissioned art/gift art, but then there's a lack of content. I have friends who've made their entire accounts based on that idea and have a lot of success. Their characters are well known and people are drawn to them.
I guess what I'm trying to say is: I don't know what I'm doing here. Because my life's been so batshit insane this past year I've lost track of people I saw as good friends, like
freelapse and 
lealong . And my decision to leave Skype for Discord (You guys can add me there, I just won't put the info out for the world to see) didn't really help. Speaking of which, I'm going to be brutally honest with why I made that decision. It was because of my ex. I never had it in me to delete her. I'm a coward and I know that. I'd see her log in all the time and just treat me like I was never anything to her, so I packed my bags and left. I tend to run away from my problems, I guess. It's only recently that I've started getting over her.I feel like I've hurt people here, so I've neglected FA for the same reason. I'm not smart.
What do I want this account to be? What do I want to be? Where is my niche? I don't know the answers to any of that. I'm going to ask what you guys want to see. I'm still without a job, so commissioned stuff isn't going to be regular and I've been feeling like drawing a lot less. I mean, let's be honest here. I spend a lot of time on my pictures and they never come out how I want them to, nor do they get attention. I don't have the drive to improve anymore for a lot of reasons.
Art of Snow is coming soon, I recently commissioned
combatraccoon and I hope to get it by Friday. I probably won't have time to get back to comments during the day, I'll most likely be out and about trying to get furniture going for my apartment. Thanks for putting up with me, my insecurities and bullshit through 2016. I hope that 2017 will be a year where I can find my place here and be happy with it.
You just figure out whatever you want to do with your account, it can be anything you want it to be. You could always make two accounts, one for personal art and one for gifted/commissioned art. Or you can just keep doing what you're doing.
I probably should separate my art but I don't do enough personal art to really warrant a full account for it haha.
I know I just said I'm terrible at keeping up with people, but my inbox is always open for you if you need a place to vent or just chat ♥
I actually made a Weasyl account mainly for art I get, but I might just keep doing what I'm doing here and put it up between my own art. Maybe when I get a more stable income I'll think about another account, I mean, I have like, 8 characters now who deserve art too.
But yeah, I'll send you a note the next chance I get