If you read my last journal you would know that I'm struggling a bit with my health, but I didn't disclose the issues. At that time I wanted to keep the main issue more personal and closed off from others. At this point in time I don't want to keep all my aching emotions and pain bottled to myself about my health condition.

I am currently struggling with my second round of non hodgkin's lymphoma. Hearing that this has come back has been devastating to me more so on the emotional level than the physical level. The fact that I have to go through this a second time is not only discouraging, but very very scary and fills my heart with fear and sadness.

The treatment plan is 8-12 weeks, but lingering side-effects and risk of future incidents like this still fill me with a lot of uncertainty...

I just had to get this off my chest to let people know why I've been distant/cold/unresponsive to some people. I had to let people know what's going on. I had to ensure and let everyone know i'm going to be okay.

I may have cancer, but you know what? It sure as hell doesn't have me.

Don't worry too much about me, I've survived this once and I know I will again albeit the struggle and pains of it. So until I get better and back to 100% art may be a bit slow and or non-existent... Probably only for real close people/friends/if I need to draw to stay sane.

I'll be okay... I promise!
Taoru "Taco Tao" Sukigami