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Sorry Jacko
16 years ago
Sorry Jacko, I can't "Keep it in the closet."
It's all over bar the shouting...
Today my wife gave me an ultimatum; I had one week to work out who I was (read: If I'm a 'furfag' or not) and where the relationship is going... We're filing for divorce tomorrow.
I spent the day sitting at Sleaford Bay going over just how much my gayness was going to fuck up several people's lives. Got some beautiful photos which I'll upload later too. Yay for me! *circles talon in the air unenthusiastically*
The situation is far from nasty! In fact, SFA is going to change in the near future! My wife isn't pushing me to move out (as long as I'm not pursuing a relationship while here - which is not a problem since I've been cured of relationships for the forseeable future.!) & my mood is likely to elevate now that I'm finally 'free' of my mental burden.
No idea how long I'll be staying in Port Lincoln - I'll be staying a while to help my son through things, but since they still have 'poofta bashing' over here, I guess it all depends on how things go work wise.
But one thing's for sure. My days in this half-horse town are numbered & I'll eventually be moving to the big smoke to start all over again!
It's all over bar the shouting...
Today my wife gave me an ultimatum; I had one week to work out who I was (read: If I'm a 'furfag' or not) and where the relationship is going... We're filing for divorce tomorrow.
I spent the day sitting at Sleaford Bay going over just how much my gayness was going to fuck up several people's lives. Got some beautiful photos which I'll upload later too. Yay for me! *circles talon in the air unenthusiastically*
The situation is far from nasty! In fact, SFA is going to change in the near future! My wife isn't pushing me to move out (as long as I'm not pursuing a relationship while here - which is not a problem since I've been cured of relationships for the forseeable future.!) & my mood is likely to elevate now that I'm finally 'free' of my mental burden.
No idea how long I'll be staying in Port Lincoln - I'll be staying a while to help my son through things, but since they still have 'poofta bashing' over here, I guess it all depends on how things go work wise.
But one thing's for sure. My days in this half-horse town are numbered & I'll eventually be moving to the big smoke to start all over again!
... Meanwhile I've spent all day abusing myself for "being a selfish c*nt who can't just suck it up for the benefit of 6 other people."
Real 'greater good' argument going on in my head.
Just hang in there.
Ultimately I appear to be the only one mad at myself, but that's pretty normal.
I doubt that anybody is really going to think I'm being selfish - I know that in my heart it is for the best. Living a lie has taken a huge toll on me over the years & I haven't been the most fun person to be around (physically) of late.
If I was going to be selfish, I'd move to Adelaide tomorrow... But that would be incredibly selfish as it would be extremely hard on the kids. I'll be sticking in town for a while to help through the transition, moving to Adelaide in 6 months or so.
In the meantime, it does lift a huge weight from my shoulders (it missed the huge weight around my gut, but I guess I'll just have to work on that one myself!)
It's gonna be hard not tucking the kids in at night for a bit though. But then, I'm good at change.
(The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth!)
Good luck in your journey, wherever it takes you
Of course, real soon I'll be a net addict again!
I've just been neutered for several months, thasall!
(clunky as this may sound) i hope things work out for both you and your family, and i hope you feel ... less emotionally burdened within yourself.
either way, *emits emotionally supporty-type ray things*
Wow! Your ray things are super shiny!
Thanks heaps. *Hugs*
Yeah, it's one of those things - whenever I am on your side of the fence, I usually struggle to try and not do a trite 'me too' type of response.
Maybe that's what we need. A button to take the triteness out! "6 people(s) says 'suck it up.'"
As I said to Marc, I think I posted it moreso for my own sense of closure than anything.
After all, it all goes up from here! Yay!
wow dude!
Things have changed in such a short time!
I respect you for making the tough decisions!
I do very much hope to catch up with you some time soon mate! Miss you loads...
and as for poofter bashing... what happens when the poofters bash back!!?
:P
Much love Ant! Your a wonderful guy!
<3
Yeah, I'd be lying if I said it was easy or painless, but I know that at the end of the day it is for the best.
The only time I've been happy is when communicating with the furs of the world, which I've been denied for months now. Here's to happiness! *passes you two glasses of red* (Dwaggie still doesn't drink, despite currently wishing for a JD)
Thanks for the sentiments mate. Next year I should end up in Adelaide, so if the current non-prices for Tiger Airways keeps up, I'll be able to pop over to Melbourne occasionally to say hi!
and as for poofter bashing... what happens when the poofters bash back!!?
Evidently the bashers then smash the victim over the back of the head with a glass bottle and start going Romper Stomper on their heads...
At least, that's what happened to a good friend of mine a few years ago. Fortunately, he did take out at least 6 of them first. (black belt 4th dan in Zen Do Kai)
As to me? Fight back? Pffft. I'm the freak that keeps catching and releasing spiders, remember? I may look intimidating to some people, but I'm softer than a puppy!
<BIG HUGS>