Is there some deadline you need to meet on something? =Tc
I would generally advise not to put pressure on yourself because that's a quick way to associate your craft with bad experiences.
But if you indeed need to meet some demand then I'd recommend to combine your practice with the things you love to draw.

I need to slowly prepare for the next class though the biggest thing I look up against is that I won't be able to focus on art at all than, I try to but it never works out. One main issue is the figure drawing book by Michael Hampton I practice from, I always go back to the first chapter after not being able to get back to it in a long time. I seem to never be able to get through that book in it's entirety which is extremely frustrating to me. And that's just 1 book, than there's also Sycra and Proko videos for example. One of the Sycra videos advising to repeatedly draw one thing over and over again with slight changes as you go. Than I also have to learn how to draw from the shoulder which is something completely new to me, I don´t even know where to start with that thing. Gesture drawing and and the repeatedly drawing the same thing is something I can only do when I force myself to do it. Not something I can do when I´m already under heavy stress from study work.
I think also something to do with my autism, having difficulty to separate head from side issue. I generally look for a red line with a start and end but when I can´t find it I end up walking into a wall again, I look up against everything as if it were clumped together into a big mountain.
Also having a backlog of many many art ideas I want to draw out at the same time with more rushing in as I go, I´m mainly working on that now really but I´m so darn slow.
I've absolutely have no work rhythm and generally only end up drawing late in the day. I followed some art streams again and I notice how some artists manage to draw almost the entire day, I guess not something I can compare with because study takes in most of my time.

Idk maybe I need to plan in when I go through figure drawing book chapters or videos even during study days.

As it goes now I just invest many hours in the drawings I want to draw and the rest of the time I just gets distracted with things, I guess relaxing? I try to force myself to draw earlier on the day so I don't end up drawing way past midnight because I feel like I didn't make enough progress during the day.

That's a lot to take in... '3'
Let me just say that you shouldn't be so judgemental with yourself, no matter where you see your skill level, if you compare yourself to other artists you will only discourage yourself.
The only thing an artist should compare themselves to is nature and nothing else.
Meaning that the best way to learn to draw is to interpret nature first hand instead of copying other artists.
The art books are good in so far as describing techniques to simplify the complex mechanisms of nature.
Indeed i see some formulas in your approach but you also already have some good instincts on how to draw characters.
Perseverance, pause and patience is the way to go in acquiring any skill.
I would suggest that you try and contact your professors outside of class and ask them for a personal assessment and to give you more specific solutions on the the items you find the most difficulty with. You should also mention any frustrations you have and ask for methods of understanding them that are most suitable for you. Don't be afraid to ask questions, the a teacher's job is to advise not to preach.

If you want any help though, send a note with what bugs you the most, i might just have some relevant info on it.

Sorry, I want to apologize for suddenly throwing that all out at once.
I was constantly compared to a 'normal person' by my father through my youth so not comparing myself is difficult. Going to the psychologist for over a year now because of that. If anything I always feel like I'm a 100 times slower than anyone in anything.
As for art I clearly lack the skill and anatomy knowledge needed to efficiently draw a figure. I guess I do have some methods for drawing the torso, at least from the front but I lack extremely when it comes to the limbs which includes where the limbs connect to the torso. I feel like I can only succeed if I manage to fully practice everything form the figure drawing book by Michael Hampton but for that I have to do gesture drawing practice for every practice session which takes up a lot of time that I just don't have thanks to my stupid study. It's like I can only perform a single task on the day where everyone is multi-tasking.
I feel like I should've succeeded at something in my life already be it at study or at art but both are going awry for me, it's like I'm running out of time, years of my life gone without anything to get back out of it. To me it looks as if I'm the only non-successful person in the world I guess. Despite all my effort I only keep on running into more and more walls.
Lately I've been thinking, when will the failures finally F off, when can I finally succeed at something?
Right now I've only drawn 1 hour and 15 min on a day where I wanted to spend most my time on drawing. It's already past midnight, I've failed myself again. I than usually and up try to draw at a late hour like this trying to get back what I lost. I can't sleep unless the day was successful.
I can't be happy with myself if I can't draw for at least 4 hours on a day with no study work. Most streaming artist's seem to go on much longer than that. Well ok a few I know.

As for study stuff, I study Biology at the University so being independent at everything is expected. I did after all these years found a study method that works for me which is studying in the library away from all the distractions at home and my own PC. It's a 30 min bicycle ride away which is why I didn't do it before.

I thought such a place might also be better for art though my preference to drawing NSFW material makes that more difficult.


Sorry, that's a lot again.
Simply said I need a work method where I can't get distracted. That's the most important thing for now.

And I burst open again like it's nothing.
Sorry again, I'm glad for the support.

Don't be sorry, i didn't mean it as a negative, i just didn't expect you'd trust me with all your pains so quickly. x3
I see you have some anxieties, how helpful is the talk therapy with your shrink? Do you feel they are being supportive? It's good to know how a specialist is performing, it's your health after all.
But again, you are being pretty brutal with yourself, life is not a race, and expectations are poison to the soul. You are not obliged to fill any quota by any age, that's just the stiff thinking of an industrialist educational system. You are only hurting yourself if you think that life is on a schedule. It's time to free yourself of that popular delusion.
Stop punishing yourself and learn to forgive and accept yourself instead. =3
Sorry for being preachy, it's just tough to explain since I'm not a shrink myself. But know that I've been seeing a shrink for two years now and been taking anti-depressants for a bit over two years. You are not alone, there are plenty here who feel they have failed their God ordained quotas. x3
I hope I'm not bringing you down more with all this... <:3c

It's probably a bad habit of mine to be too open about all my worries. I tend to over-explain myself, afraid that others come up with a bad image of me if I don't.
Actually going to do some kind of exercises. Not sure exactly what but it's about my negative self image which will start next week. I guess a problem is that I wasn't going for a while and one of the thing I forgot is the list of qualities that I have. I tend to only look at the most general ones like 'Am I good at studying?'. Overal it's the only time I can really vent out, the only other time is the rare times I'm able to see a friend. I actually did last weekend.
I guess me needing to redo classes from the 2nd Bachelor year for the 3rd time is what's been frustrating me the most, in that regard I'm definitely behind everyone else. It's probably my sense of only having a chance of being accepted if I have the same quality as the people directly around me. Of course some people are still pushy including my family,
I guess it's also a matter of what I put the most time in which are study 1st and art 2nd. I wish I could switch them around but that's never going to happen apparently, another frustration point.
Study generally drains me of all my energy so very little comes out on art let stand art practice which I would need to set hours even entire days out for to do it. Study might take in the most time but my desire to draw makes me feel like I've been working a lot on art as well over the years, yet here I am still struggling with the basics. I'm still a beginner after all that, it just feels wrong.
I guess I did draw despite me constantly hating myself for not doing it earlier on the day. I just need to find help with how I'm going to fill in my days even more detailed than I do now, I do get that on the help for people with autisme part. I'll write that down, I might forget to in a few days. I tend to give up on schedules cause they don't work for me within a few weeks.

Nah, it's ok. This really does help, I'm the one that completely blew up in the first place.
I generally visualize all my art ideas as if more and more are filling up in my head like a balloon that's on the brink of bursting and study suppressing my chances to deflate. That and that I can;t visualize as I hope to. That's my quota I guess. I probably have made some progress as I started to socialize more, I actually chose to focus on that last year and I did. Putting the gears back into art is difficult to say the least.

It's actually helping me up, I guess I just kept over explaining for no good reason.
I'm happy when someone tells me to accept myself more.

Hey, whenever you need someone to chat to, I'd be happy to oblige. =3
Whatever happens just keep putting one foot in front of the other. It's the journey that counts, not the destination. And other fortune cookie noise like that. ;3