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A Botched Coming Out...
16 years ago
So this past Sunday i had this discussion with my Dad (yes, i still live at home but i am working on getting out). I informed him that i intend to start living my life as i choose, and that means that I will pursue Gentlemen instead of the Ladies.
He sat there and listened. After i had spoke my peace, he responded in a mixed bag fashion. First, he said that my choice to life in that lifestyle does not "jive" with his belifes and value system. As such, i would have to find some other way to take care of my needs for a home, phone, internet, office (i rent out office space from him).
Secondly, he said that if this is really something that i wanted to pursue, that there is no turning back. That i could never return to this point in my life where i can make the choice on whom to pursue romantically. (for me, i see being homosexual as a choice. but this is just my opinion, and if this differs from yours, i would love to discuss it. but that being said, i do not want this to turn into something where it becomes a rant on what it is to be gay. i ask that if you do take offense to my opinion, i apologize. but that is my opinion).
Lastly, a day later, i informed him that i have been in communication with a man that has taken me by total surprise. He and i met and instantly were friends. It feels like i have known him all my life and before that. And that i truly consider him a friend with the potential for something deeper than just friendship. I could tell that that took him aback, and since then we have been holding small, but civil discussions on this matter.
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I just hope that after all of this is said and done with, that my Dad and I will still be able to be like we are now. And that is as friends. But i am at a loss right now. I don't really know where to go from here. I am applying for jobs left and right, so that i can get out of there. But other than that, i am at a loss. I have made soo many friends here. I appreciate you all so much. Any words of wisdom, advice or comfort would be deeply appreciated because this is such new territory for me. :)
one of your furry horse friends,
Xorin :)
He sat there and listened. After i had spoke my peace, he responded in a mixed bag fashion. First, he said that my choice to life in that lifestyle does not "jive" with his belifes and value system. As such, i would have to find some other way to take care of my needs for a home, phone, internet, office (i rent out office space from him).
Secondly, he said that if this is really something that i wanted to pursue, that there is no turning back. That i could never return to this point in my life where i can make the choice on whom to pursue romantically. (for me, i see being homosexual as a choice. but this is just my opinion, and if this differs from yours, i would love to discuss it. but that being said, i do not want this to turn into something where it becomes a rant on what it is to be gay. i ask that if you do take offense to my opinion, i apologize. but that is my opinion).
Lastly, a day later, i informed him that i have been in communication with a man that has taken me by total surprise. He and i met and instantly were friends. It feels like i have known him all my life and before that. And that i truly consider him a friend with the potential for something deeper than just friendship. I could tell that that took him aback, and since then we have been holding small, but civil discussions on this matter.
...
I just hope that after all of this is said and done with, that my Dad and I will still be able to be like we are now. And that is as friends. But i am at a loss right now. I don't really know where to go from here. I am applying for jobs left and right, so that i can get out of there. But other than that, i am at a loss. I have made soo many friends here. I appreciate you all so much. Any words of wisdom, advice or comfort would be deeply appreciated because this is such new territory for me. :)
one of your furry horse friends,
Xorin :)
You just stay your strong self bud...
*kisses*
i will try. *Huggs*
that is all i can do.
But yeah, hang in there bud :3