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8 years ago
I'm not quite happy with what I'm currently doing. This may mean I'd have to drop out of school and make my way into a public university, where I'd start a new major in August. Certainly, this would suck majorly since I've already lost a year's worth of studies due to some bullshit circumstances I've had to deal with. With that said, this would render me significantly older than your average college freshman, since I'd be starting all over again at the age of 20.
Now, to those asking why I'm considering doing such a thing, I feel that studying animation was a wrong move. Like, I don't feel like I've got what it takes to be competent. I compare myself to my classmates and boy they are way better than me. Most of the time I find myself struggling to draw something as simple as a fucking vase since I don't have the vision other people have. This brings me to ask the following question: do you know why I don't put shading or proper textures in my drawings? Well, I don't know how to do either. Even after trying to learn; after applying that knowledge to a drawing, it just turns out weird-looking, or simply flatout disgusting. That's pretty much it.
I'm incompetent in almost every sense of the word. Hell, what you don't know is that I can't upload anything to this website before being checked on by an undisclosed third party, and that just fucking brings me down. I miss the times when I wouldn't give a shit about any of that. Like, when you're not planning on making a living a living out of your artwork, you don't mind if things look odd or whatever since you have all the time in the world to improve. However, you're still doing it just for the hell of it. You're having fun.
In my case, it just gets overwhelmingly hard. You care so much for the quality of the finished product that drawing on its own stops being fun and it just feels more like a chore and a punishment, rather than a shelter from life and the troubles that come with it. Besides this, I only have three years to polish my skills before I'm thrown into the unforgiving real world.
Anyways, this is where my rant ends. I'm also making it clear that I'm not expecting you to care.
I've disappointed way too many people with this charade of mine. Mostly though, I've disappointed myself. I never thought that I would fail at fulfilling this quest.
Now, to those asking why I'm considering doing such a thing, I feel that studying animation was a wrong move. Like, I don't feel like I've got what it takes to be competent. I compare myself to my classmates and boy they are way better than me. Most of the time I find myself struggling to draw something as simple as a fucking vase since I don't have the vision other people have. This brings me to ask the following question: do you know why I don't put shading or proper textures in my drawings? Well, I don't know how to do either. Even after trying to learn; after applying that knowledge to a drawing, it just turns out weird-looking, or simply flatout disgusting. That's pretty much it.
I'm incompetent in almost every sense of the word. Hell, what you don't know is that I can't upload anything to this website before being checked on by an undisclosed third party, and that just fucking brings me down. I miss the times when I wouldn't give a shit about any of that. Like, when you're not planning on making a living a living out of your artwork, you don't mind if things look odd or whatever since you have all the time in the world to improve. However, you're still doing it just for the hell of it. You're having fun.
In my case, it just gets overwhelmingly hard. You care so much for the quality of the finished product that drawing on its own stops being fun and it just feels more like a chore and a punishment, rather than a shelter from life and the troubles that come with it. Besides this, I only have three years to polish my skills before I'm thrown into the unforgiving real world.
Anyways, this is where my rant ends. I'm also making it clear that I'm not expecting you to care.
I've disappointed way too many people with this charade of mine. Mostly though, I've disappointed myself. I never thought that I would fail at fulfilling this quest.
AxelRod21
~axelrod21
Awww I am sorry to hear your having a rough go. I hope things improve for you and you find the desire to draw and art again. Animation doesn't have to be difficult as long as you take baby steps. The same technique you use to draw a set pic is the same concept you use to animate. You just draw for example a simple wave of hand moving to the left center then right and a smile then you got a simple animation :) As for shading don't be afraid to ask other artist how are they shading there is no right or wrong way as long as your happy with the out come. :)
