So after a couple weeks after seeking help, I am feeling a bit better.. life doesn't seem as overwhelming. Downside is that I am used to that... so I feel a bit off.

I wrote out a bit long journal about my various characters, trying to decide who I like the most and asking for opinions... but you know what, I don't care. I'll leave them as they are... I just don't feel right sometimes.

Doubt anyone even reads this anyway