So as i doubt many of you know, i worked at a sport center all throughout last summer I loved it. honestly. It had to be one of my best summers every. I did it all as a volunteer too! And i was given this fleece/jacket as uniform. Now, I very so appreciated and special and accepted when i got this jacket... I LOVE this jacket!

So i worked for the summer, then on my last day i asked the woman who was mt acting boss at the time if they wanted my jacket back after i'd washed it. She said that i could keep it and i was SO HAPPY! It is so comfortable and fluffy and HECK i have no idea how but its a fleece and water rolled right off it!

So this sports center is also connected to my school. So i wanted to show off a little to my friends and wore the fleece into school. It was really nice and best of all, i didn't get told off by teachers because it was uniform for the sport center and technically the school (i'd have to year a tacky blazer otherwise -3- i hate my blazer its to uncomfortable!)

So i've been wearing this fleece every day for the past half a year... I fucking love this fleece, i wear it even when i don;t have school.. I wear it for comfort, not just physically... I ever put my lucky Gloomy Bear on the zipper!

Do any of you know what thats like...? to love something so so much that it becomes a part of who you are and always makes you happy and you don't feel normal unless you wear it? because thats what this fleece made me feel like,.. Normal... I'm a normal teenager who has a normal summer job and a normal jacket thats part of the normal uniform...

Or i was...

Today, while i was walking out of school late with my friend (we had stayed behind to do Artwork) i got stopped by someone who worked at the center. I knew her vaguely, but not much. she asked why i had the jacket and i explained and told her that (lets call my acting boss 'Jill') Jill had let me keep it after the summer. So we went to talk to Jill and she said that she didn't know. So this lady (how about 'Rosie') explained that she had seen me around the school wearing it and that she told her manager who said that I shouldn't have it... That Jill shouldn't of let me keep it...

So i walk out, feeling absolutely destroyed... This thing, this fleece that had become like a second layer of skin to me... I had to give it away... So i go home, and i just feel so... Empty... I had to give it back... Yes, i had to give it back tomorrow not just then, but still...

Don't get me wrong, i understand that if i'm not currently working at the center and am wearing the uniform around there might be a problem because if i did something bad then its a bad representation of them and stuff, but this fleece was a part of me...

It made me, 'me'...

I end up explaining about Rosie to my mum and she emails Jill about it and Jill says that she never said I could keep it. But Y'know what? My entire family was home when i first got home and told them i was allowed to keep it. They all saw how happy I was. My mum has been friends with Jill for a few years and apparently this is just how she is, she lies and lies and lies if its going to get her out of trouble.

My mum is taking the jacket back tomorrow for me and talking with the manager and stuff... They said they weren't going to take me back during this summer because of 'problems' i had last summer (which there really wasn't any of) so now i've lost two things... A whole part of myself and my summer job... They were gunna take me back on in the summer as a paid worker but now they're saying they're not...

I don't know what i'm going to do... I mean, its just a jacket right? I kept telling myself that over and over but it didn't help! Because to me it wasn't 'just a jacket', it was a part of my very being!

You all know my Fursona, Ace. You all know the pink hoodie he wears. Well, this fleece is my 'pink hoodie'. Its my comfort, its my look, its 'me'.

What upsets me the most isn't that they're taking this part of me, its that it took them so long to do it... It would have been so much easier if they had just called up a week after the summer and been like 'oh hey sorry can you give the jacket back' instead of taking this long!

I'm sorry about this unstructured rant and vent, i just needed to get this off my chest and tell someone...