Driving home from the career center, realizing even if I take a free course in welding I'll make next to nothing in the career until I get certified and it's not really what I want to do... would just be training to add to my blacksmithing skills.

Tired, lonely, empty... I miss the girl I love, I miss stability, I miss having a passion in my life... I feel like a coal in my forge, hours after I stopped the blower... Just cooling with no purpose other than to burn out.

*weeps*

Guess I'll go make some of those coals now...