I am currently writing this journal at 03.44 in the morning after a lovely chat to the local police after they came knocking on my door (the door to my room even). They were really lovely and asked me about everything that had happend and I talked it all over with them and explained everything. After having offered to drive me to St: Görans (A mental ward in stockholm) I politely declined and they went down and talked to my mother (who was somewhat shocked). The alcohol has dissappeared from my system and I am once again clear of thought as I write this.

I am sorry for everyone I made worried with my last journal or even the people I didnt worry. I am sorry for having posted something so immature as a threat about taking my life just due to some slight struggling in my life. I know that life isn't easy and what you want don't come easy and im usually alot more mature than I was last night. I just wanna inform everyone that I am doing fine and I have realised what I did wrong. I hurt people that I never meant to hurt and therefor I am deeply sorry. And I wanna thank everyone for everything that was said that made me think deeper about myself and who I am and what my actions can do.

I am not going to give up that easily on life. Life is worth living to the fullest I should know that especially since my little sister didn't get the chance to do so.

So once again I am deeply sorry everyone and I hope that I can be forgiven for my immature ways.