Journal title is exactly what it means, I'm gonna be giving my commissioners, who've yet received their art yet, refunds.


Reason?

Well....honestly I just can't keep up with anything art related as much anymore. Work life has been sucking me dry to the point of anxiety/stress/anger and just overall a lot of other laundry list of problems that arise from just working there. Only recently have I been able to buckle down and start to get a break from it all, but only since I had to force their hand in this one. Either way, me not being able to work on artwork because my IRL work and life stresses are a prominent thing, shouldn't be an excuse for me to not get my commissioners the art they deserve and have waited months for.


I don't want to be one of those artists who have these commissions from commissioners and then spend a year to get it out for them. That's not who I was when I originally did commissions and that's not who I want to become. I don't even work on any other pictures on the side because that wouldn't be right on my commissioners who wait so long for their art, only to see art of something else. Hell, it even takes me ages to just get PERSONAL art done. I just don't have the time/energy/skill/strength to keep up with it anymore. At least for now. I hate doing this and it makes me feel horrible for doing so, like I can't even keep up with my own damn art, but it's a decision that's just better for everyone else involved with it. Both me and my commissioners alike.


So to my commissioners who've been waiting this long, I incredibly apologize for this long wait, and I do understand if you're upset with it coming to this. I'll be sending all of you your refunds as soon I click upload with this journal. Again, I really do apologize....it shouldn't have gotten this far. I mostly blame my stubborn nature for it, like "I shouldn't have to give up, I KNOW I can do this." When it was only just more damaging to myself and you.


For everyone else, for me doing art in general? I'm not gonna stop doing art, no worries about that, but....it's just gonna take a bit. Honestly, might just practice here and there maybe. Some doodles or whatever I get in the mood to do, if I get the time/inspiration to do so. I just need some time for myself, I don't really have the skill and only just now got the time to do things again.


I do love all of you guys, and I do apologize if this did upset anyone at all. Just hope I can get better with the arts sooner then later.