I normally don't talk about my feelings or personal stuff. But whatever...

I'm hesitant to take commissions or talk to people because I've had some pretty manipulative and abusive clients in the past. People who have created multiple accounts just to try and disguise themselves and message me again. People who use threats and guilt tactics to get free art or are just generally very overly defensive if you hesitate a little. People who play dumb far too often and constantly ask for the benefit of the doubt. People who take advantage of forgiveness. People who don't forget and will still message me even years after having cutting contact with them.

I'm not going to name drop. Their treatment of others is their own personal problems and me getting mad at them for it doesnt really solve anything.

But I just feel sorta bad because I see a lot of people who've made good friends and are very accepting and fun. And I'm just really really distrusting of anyone who tries to act friendly towards me now. I always feel like there is some kind of ulterior motive or they want something from me.