I've been out of the loop for roughly 1&1/4 years. My mother tore the wireless chip clean out of my old laptop. She attempted to prevent me from two things....one, from escaping her control. She loves me yes, but she seeks to control unconsciously. Secondly, she sought to prevent me from my mate, Hitomi. In both aspects, she has hereby failed. I write this journal in declaration that no matter what happens to you, no matter whether you be fur, human or something else, There is always hope. No matter how deep the darkness, or how blinding the light, there is always a way, there is always hope. I'm not proud of what i've done, it took a year long lie and complex deception to merely survive. yet...i don't hate my mom, i hate what she did. Now, i own my own laptop, my own life, my own power....college starts in september...and then....i'll be free. Despite all the costs...when i get to kiss my lover deeply and hold him tight to me....it will have all been worth it. Even now, it is worth it merely for being able to be back online. so here i am now, letting those who may still care know, that i have returned.