I'm writing this year because I didn't have anywhere or anyone to rant to. I just felt like trash today. I figured out that I have emotional issues and need to see a therapist, but I'm so scared of doing it. I'm so scared of what will happen and what I'll be told. Work wasn't great either today and I feel like it may have cost me the job I've been at for 2 years and then would begin the great search for work again. Which just aggravates me and makes me fearful all over again. I didn't know who to talk to, so I thought I'd put it here instead. Writing makes me feel better, but I know it's not a viable way to deal with stuff.